Memento mori

30 pieces of silver, who sold me out?
Judas kiss said you won't let me down
But now your nowhere to be found
While my blood drips down from my thorn crown

My soul, I secured it with a locket
But my trauma stole it, pickpocket
Pain and suffering I live off it
Now you know why my life’s so toxic

Sold my soul to the devil it's a union
Suffering makes me feel human
You ate my heart, communion
And wonder why I wanna do it

Why I hurt myself, why I wanna kill myself
When I come to you, you act like your someone else
When I beg for help you tell me to burn in hell
And you still wonder why I wanna hang myself

Fuck a pain killer, I need a pulled trigger
For you, I'd bleed out a river
For you, I’d give you my liver
And you'd give a middle finger

Yes my sanity's coming loose
Voices in my head, yes it's true
"suicide baby yeah it ain't new to you"
"tie that noose tighter till it chokes you"

Questioning life more than before
Happiness, yeah, I closed that door
It is death I adore
I'm insanity's whore

Questioning life more than before
Happiness, yeah, I closed that door
It is death I adore
I'm insanity’s whore

Someone murder me, I don’t care which degree
Don't give a warning, don’t count to three
Gonna Livestream me making IEDs
If the blast don't kill me, it will be debris

Whether it's you, whether it's me, I don’t really care
Just give me a date, just tell me where
No final words, no final prayer
I just want to leave this nightmare

Just make me bleed, just make me suffer
If you aim at me, I won't take cover
If it live through it, I'll blame another
I'll do anything to get out of this gutter

Whether I'm stuck in hell or purgatory
It would be a blessing, no need to feel sorry
Cause there's nothing left to add to my story
We all die eventually, memento mori

Choke me choke me till I can't breath
Cut me cut me till I can't bleed
Oh why oh why can't you see?
That I want death to pick me

Choke me choke me till I can't breath
Cut me cut me till I can't bleed
Oh why oh why can't you see?
That I want death to pick me