Meditation, Pt. 3

[Intro]
I just gotta get this off, you know
I'm dropping gems in this one, though
Yeah

[Verse 1]
Again I'm meditatin'
I'm so close to God, feel like I'm levitatin'
Move without hesitation
All glory goes to Him for all these revelations
This is His house that we in, I'm just the decorations
The wisest man alive without no college education
That's how I know He chose me to win this fight with Satan
Been making lots of adjustments, 'cause everything been changin'
I guess He's still arrangin'
And I be still complainin'
Still be all in my feelings, still be tryin' to believe
No matter how much attention, I still feel unachiеved
Tell me why I feel tеnsion when I get on my knees
That's 'cause until I repent, conviction won't ever leave
Even though I'm saved, I feel like I'm in need of savin'
I pray to God every day to forgive my misbehavior
I rub people the wrong way, I hope that they forgive me
'Cause I don't think that they fully accepted how I'm livin'
My biological father I haven't talked to in months
And I don't even know why, maybe I'm doin' too much
And my father that raised me, we only talk when it's needed
Tension in between us for years, you know, for different reasons
My past relationship missed the closure I thought it had needed
'Cause every time we talk, it just feel like things are repeated
I could be wrong, but I sense envy in some hearts
I think me being happy in love could play a part, but it's
God written, feel like I have God vision
Got so many gifts from other people, now I'm givin'
Every time I stumble, they be actin' like I'm trippin'
I make more mistakes, it's like I'm sleepin' with five women
They don't like to hear what I'm sayin', but I'm still talkin'
They don't like Him holding my hand, but we still walkin'
I know why they don't understand, 'cause they still lost in
They don't think I know what's in the plans, but I'm real cautious
Wait, let me get out my bag, that's just feelings talkin'
Don't care 'bout the money, but for that I'll make millions off it
I gave myself, He gave energy, I ain't ever lost it
That's how I'm droppin' all this music and I'm not exhausted, yeah
They say I'm gifted with rappin', some say that I'm a pastor
Right now I'm fastin', I'm starvin' myself searching for answers
Proper parts of me hurtin', feel like cervical cancer
Soon as I learned to be patient, things started moving faster

[Chorus]
Yeah, and I don't need no medication
I just need some meditation
This right here my dedication
This gon' be my revelation

[Outro]
Yeah, I only speak what I live
Light child