Medication

[Chorus]
Lately I need medication
Just to get through conversation
Bleeding for their entertainment
I could be wrong I think I’m changing
Blissful thoughts they come and go
My family says you're not alone
Pretending that I feel at home
Still happiness has been unknown

[Verse 1]
I wish that things would be different
Still I have my own addictions
No matter what I'm on a mission
I never said that I was christian, no
Its hard to trust in your religion, so
We all will have our own predictions, Oh
I'm tired of being a victim
Of circumstances I jump in when
I know the cost of my actions
I see them constantly clashing
With peoples perfect image of me
Getting lost in the fashion
Evеn when tragedy happens
I sit in light and I bask in
Probably thе reason I lasted
Not focusing on the static
And all the time left to my own devices
Has made me realize that I'm way too divisive
I scared you off coming on too strong
I've been damaged in the brain for too long

[Chorus]
Lately I need medication
Just to get through conversation
Bleeding for their entertainment
I could be wrong I think I’m changing
Blissful thoughts they come and go
My family says you're not alone
Pretending that I feel at home
Still happiness has been unknown

[Verse 2]
It's hard to act like everything's OK
Got too much flowers just waiting on my grave
I feel similar, 24/7 everyday
Just minimal while I've been living a slow daze
This stress, breaks me down to the point
Where i feel it inside my bones and my joints
I've learned to live with the things that i hate the most
Let's raise a toast
To getting over the trauma
Raise some hope from dishonor
And take a quote from my mama
She told me lift from the drama
These wounds are making you stronger
And don't be closed to the facts
It doesn't help to be worried
So i just try to relax
My dad just wants me to make money
Not concerned with the stacks
I can't take that where I'm going
I leave it all in my stash
Lately i move more strategic
Got no concern to be fast
If my soul gets defeated
Know that i lived to my last, doing me