Meant To Be

Yeah
To my life, I hope to see you next year
Yeah

I'm thankin' all of my enemies
I hope you know that y'all set the villain free
So I will never fall on my legacy
This is really all that it's meant to be
I built up this wall and it's killin' me
Now I let it fall to it's misery
I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet
This is really all that's it's meant to be

Yeah
I went from twisted, no cap, to literally just twistin' a cap
'Cause I feel this bottle's in fact, the only friend that I did have
When I stacked so much on my back
It's tragic but sad as it sounds, it's all that I had
Lookin' back, I was kinda glad that I had it
'Cause if I hadn't, I probably would'a saw my end, it was possible
Either that or my ass would'a been dragged up to a mental hospital
God for bid, I was not myself, irresponsible monster, no one was stoppin' though
Causing so much drama, shit wasn't plausible
But I feel like my conscience started quittin' on me, it's unfair
Why the fuck is no one talkin' to me, hello, is anyone up there
Can't bare to think that I have to make my own decisions
Feel like I'm superstitious, can't even stoop to this shit
But this is, not where I thought I'd be sittin' at up at this age
By now I thought I be rockin' stages but man, have my plans changed
Just wanted my hand raised so I can be victorious
But I guess it seems I'm more of the loser, I'm not no warrior

I'm thankin' all of my enemies
I hope you know that y'all set the villain free
So I will never fall on my legacy
This is really all that it's meant to be
I built up this wall and it's killin' me
Now I let it fall to it's misery
I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet
This is really all that's it's meant to be

I dreamed of being a superstar at just such a young age
I think that it fucked up my brain, leavin' me permanent pain
Wish I could say fuck with this, get up and just walk away
Act like I never even took a fuckin' foot in this game
Man, what I would do to go back in time and just change my behavior
Hang with my friends and for fuck sake, be a normal teenager
Instead of hidin' inside and writin', I'm losin' my mind
All that I ever seem to see is yellow paper with lines
Feel like I complain about this shit way too much and yeah, I get it
You probably think if I hate this shit so much, why not just let it go and forget it
It's not that I wanna hate it at times
I love hip hop to death but someday's it's ruinin' my life
Ever since eleven, my career has just been flat lined, I guess
With this new decade, I'm afraid that it could just happen again
And I just can't do another ten and get no where up with this
I can't even wait another year, if I'll be honest so shit, is this it

I'm thankin' all of my enemies
I hope you know that y'all set the villain free
So I will never fall on my legacy
This is really all that it's meant to be
I built up this wall and it's killin' me
Now I let it fall to it's misery
I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet
This is really all that's it's meant to be

Yeah, somedays I visit my older shit and I think to myself
How fuckin' stupid I sounded, rappin' like I'd get a deal, that's how I feel
I cringe up when I hear Therapy still
And I wrote that when I was depressed and it still hasn't helped
After this I'll be leavin' peacefully, decency's all I needed
I dreamed of seein' so many people just freely believe in me
But seemingly, that's not how it would be so I'm cleanin' my sins
So Jesus can lead me away from this evil that be in me, thanking

I'm thankin' all of my enemies
I hope you know that y'all set the villain free
So I will never fall on my legacy
This is really all that it's meant to be
I built up this wall and it's killin' me
Now I let it fall to it's misery
I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet
This is really all that's it's meant to be

So whatever man
It's a love, hate relationship I guess
The one thing I can say about hip hop is
Hip hop's never left my side
And for that I'm never gonna leave it's side
I'm gonna die in this game probably
Just comes down to whether I make it or not so, until then
I'll see ya around