Meanest

[Intro: ShiVam]

Ya know, it took me a while to be me
Went through the motions, took shit from people
Thats when I learned, who I really am
"Sometimes you gotta be a lion to be the lamb you really are"
-Yvonne Reed(Dave Chappelle's mom)

[Hook]

We all got our demons
But mine are meanest
They won't let me get too close
To the ones I need the most
They're angry and violent
They show uninvited
So you better run away
'Fore my demons come to play(Yeah)

[ Verse 1: ShiVam]

Sittin' in this house alone
Reminiscin' on how to pro-ceed
Feel like I got all the secrets and I'm just stuck
Dumbfucks showin' me thumbs up, they say my stuff bumps
Then why do I always feel like a numb skull who's
Rhymes are hollow, man these words Im tryna swallow
Like my liquor problem
Ether wrong motherfuckers when Im on it(yes I am)
They just being bitter 'n' honest(honest)
I'd rather deal with gin and tonic
Hide my feelings, see and saw them
Tighten my grips in hopes o' not bein' an alcoholic(holic)
It's what I am, no matter if I say it raw or polished
Carryin' thoughts appallin', now all the shots are callin'
Themselves, walkin' around town
Brown Clown's head gettin' shut down like Onyx
Even tho my pen is iconic
ShiV always feel like man I'm connin'
But this for those who got no hope
I've been where you have(have)
Always felt like I never had it, ran into hazards
Boozin' away my life tryna act stupid badass (Just know)

[Hook]

We all got our demons
But mine are meanest( yes there are)
They won't let me get too close
To the ones I need the most( Im sorry ya'll)
They're angry and violent(try not to be)
They show uninvited
So you better run away
'Fore my demons come to play(You dont want that)

[Verse 2: ShiVam]

Is it time to hang the boots or is this man back in school?
Ye he screwed the pooch, been a nuisance to a few
Crude ShiV thrown into this loop and I ain't even a froot
My friends know what I've been through(uh)
Flush those demons out(ah)
Cards I was dealt, a wack hand
Leavin' a sour taste in my mouth
A sink hole where feelings I drown
I'm drinkin' batsoup, rabid when comin' at you
Ye Im infected, neurons are too violent
I caught coronavirus, before any o' you fools had
Im nuts, everytime I get on the mic, I lose fans
Issues stacked high on ya'lls news racks, Sue Atkins
Thinks sdrawkcab, that's backwards spelled backwards
Never lack words, just a clever rapper
Level seven Dizaster o'va theatre actor
I dissed 'em hacks with finesse
My enemies can get fucked raw
With their backs 'gainst cement
'gainst cement('gainst cement)
'gainst cement('gainst cement)
'gainst cement('gainst cement)

[Hook]

We all got our demons
But mine are meanest
They won't let me get too close
To the ones I need the most( Im sorry ya'll)
They're Angry and Violent(try not to be)
They show uninvited
So you better run away
'Fore my demons come to play(You dont want that)

[Verse 3: ShiVam]

To all my friends I've hurt
You know me that I must, say sorry to ya'll
Even if you piss me off, I know you ain't against me dawg
Now lemme rinse this cloth before I finish this song
Only got one thing left to do
Got this bottle o' whiskey and the sink is clogged
Lemme head to washroom, empty this twat
Into the shitter and say so long boo, it's been fun
But I'm gettin' off you, even if you think I'm the meanest
Just know that I've been like that since I was a fetus
(Oh shoot!)

[Hook]

We all got our demons
But mine are meanest( yes they are)
They won't let me get too close
To the ones I need the most( Im sorry ya'll)
They're Angry and Violent(try not to be)
They show uninvited
So you better run away
'Fore my demons come to play( what's been done is done)