Mayday

[Chorus]
Mayday
I feel like I’m broken lately
And I don’t know if you can save me
I’ve been tryin to tell em' this is not a drill
Not a cry for help
Baby call it in

[Verse 1]
I Keep my head down a lot lately
It’s not the shoes
I'm a dude who has never been used to a lot of safety
I feel the floor shaking
Tryin to figure out an exit strategy that's got the least amount of heart breaking
Cuz all the damage done
I can live with but I can’t stand to look at you while crying knowing I’m the one
That could’ve let you know when I began to feel the fall
When every color in my painting started gеtting dull
When every substancе indulged in
And the darkness I’m pulled in I don’t even try to fight it I just let it win
The Work is getting compulsive
Every action impulsive
Obvious and All you want is me to let you in
I just wish it didn’t take this much
Hard to be authentic when you’ve been afraid to love
Flyin high didn’t think of how to land it safe
And now I'm finally callin out but its just to say

[Chorus]
Mayday
I feel like I’m broken lately
And I don’t know if you can save me
I’ve been tryin to tell em' this is not a drill
Not a cry for help
Baby call it in

[Verse 2]
I Think I’m lonelier than most
Living in my head it’s hard to find somewhere to go
So I'm treating all these songs like its therapy in hopes to find the reason that I sabotage and tell you that I don't
Like I Start to build a life and when everything lookin wonderful
I stopping it at the scaffolding only cover what's vulnerable
An orphan mentality family makes me uncomfortable
And closer that I get to you the more I can deflect its so crazy
Never know the role I'm expected so I project and feel crazy
Yea I know it’s true but I do it still
If you can’t help me now i know nothing will
Analyze trying to manufacture something real
Using anything just to change how I feel, now
All I feel is broken
Heart made of porcelain
Tryin to put the pieces together Without forcing it
Faking to fit what I think a perfect person portrait is
But you deserve the world not an emotional contortionist
Yea
Bending the truth a true art
So they love what you paint but don’t know who you are
And I only show you when its far too late
When there's nothing left, there's nothing at risk to say

[Chorus]
Mayday
I feel like I’m broken lately
And I don’t know if you can save me
I’ve been tryin to tell em' this is not a drill
Not a cry for help
Baby call it in