Maybeck

[Chorus]
I don't wanna wake afraid no more
I don't wanna see my friends cry
While we fucked up
I don't wanna feel the pain no more
I don't wanna walk outside thinking
If I'm ever gonna make it back through my front door
Rock a fake smile
Never let you in
I'm alive, but my hearts broken on the floor
I don't wanna know what's left in store (Yeah, yeah)

[Verse]
Thinking 'bout praying, but God doesn't answer me
When I'm lowest, my high seems so out of reach
All these feelings are colors that they cannot see
That's why I stay high 'cause numb is the way to be
All of these thoughts in my head are what's shaping mе
Think that I'm crazy
Anything but lazy, the Constance does nothing but hеlp
No one can help me, rely on myself (Yeah)
Always have, always will (Yeah)
I don't pop no pills (No)
I don't crack no seals (No)
I don't sign no deals (No)
Boujee bitch rocking heels (Yeah)
Mansion party in the hills (Yeah)
Somehow paying all my bills (Damn)
Shout out all my fuckin' lil's
Now I jump in the ride
Four deep inside
Heading to Seattle for the weekend 'cause it's live
Having a good time
Killing time with some rhymes
Could have chose to spend my time back in Walla committing crimes
Instead, I'm cooking beats with the team (Ah), chasing dimes (Ayy)
Since days as a young jit, I've valued my privacy
Remember my first hit, that kush sparked a light in me
All of these try-hards, I'm who they inspire to be
Wish I could reason why she had to lie to me
Shorty rang my phone, but I can't pick up
Say I'm too busy, I just made that shit up
Said I had feelings, sorry for the mix up
What I meant by feelings is I like the hook up
Now she's all alone in the dark, shook up
Let her guard down for me, now she's all fucked up
Shorties in the past have my ways corrupt
I'ma fill my cup, will you wish me luck?

[Chorus]
I don't wanna wake afraid no more
I don't wanna see my friends cry
While we fucked up
I don't wanna feel the pain no more
I don't wanna walk outside thinking
If I'm ever gonna make it back through my front door
Rock a fake smile
Never let you in
I'm alive, but my hearts broken on the floor
I don't wanna know what's left in store
For us

[Outro]
For us