‎maybe its not that bad

Tell me baby, does he write you songs?
Blood all on my pillow, when I wake up shit is wrong
I been takin' 30’s, got me itchin', I can't stop
Every time I think I got a hit it start to flop
I wish that I never saw those numbers from the start
Try not to let it bug me but I can’t lie, it hurt my heart
I spill my soul on the mic and go smoke a dart
Shoutout to big veins, we just alike in that regard

Everybody write 'bout doin' drugs, it's okay
But you ain't ever threw up in your sleep, it burn your lungs
I been sippin' lean for 4 days, babe I'm havin' fun, ay
Feel my heart beatin’ in my chest, I’m dying young
And words are powerful, they'll kill you like a gun
Watch the shit you speak ’cause your whole life it becomes
People love to talk their shit but watch 'em when I run
When I fly to USA, I'm landin' with a punch

I got G.E.R.D
Regurgitation
Might pop a 40
And float away and
Can’t stand you phonies
So go away, yea
Got good friends 'round me
But they won't stay, yea
And I'm used to that
Always been the same
Since a small boy I been
Always filled with hate
But I love my momma
And I love my dad
And I'm thankful daily
For the shit I have

Maybe life is okay
Maybe it's not that bad
I got someone who loves me
I can't argue with that
I still get so fucked up
Til' I can't call a cab
I been tryna love myself
But I don't love me back

I still wake everyday
With shit on my shoulders, I'm a heavyweight
Get away
From all the negative things I always say
Fill the page
With shit I would think but I would never say
Care+ in my drink
But I been tryna get in better shape

I can't even think, yea
Baby I'm just sitting here recording with a drink, yea
Shoutout to the gang
That's double L all on my krink, yeah
Shoutout to the goat jolst
Can't wait till we link, yeah

And I still wear a hoodie
Even when it's hot
Pull it over my face
So you can't see me rot
Baby take your hood down
Girl, I'm self-conscious
Everybody talkin' money
Don't know what a job is

I guess this is what they call
A r- release
I just love you all so much
That I can't even speak
I feel fuckin' worthless
But you're all helping me
This one for the SoundCloud
I'ma go to sleep