May ’08 (Daddy’s Song)

[Chorus: Ali Tomineek, Denajah Jones, both ]
I know you say
Why you looking scared? What you really fear?
Here, tell me what you're afraid of, I really wanna hear
I swear, it ain't just a nightmare
I can tell you what I'm afraid of, do you really wanna hear?

[Verse 1]
Coming to you live from the big rock
My mind got big thoughts
Like, what if it all just stopped
What if time didn't tic toc
T-minus 5 till lift off
Took a little trip, made a pit stop
Took a look around, what I found, everybody switch up when the lights get switched off
Got a call from my old girl
She was telling me bout her old man
She ain't really seen him in a minute, she said Ali I gotta tell you something, you gotta understand (wait watchu' mean?)
I don't really open up
I don't really like talking much
At least not about this
But I don't wanna keep it bottled up ('ight speak)
Mama use to work late
Daddy use to drink alot
Mama use to cheat a lot, you can say my daddy really had a lot to think about, I don't blame him
Friends never knew about it
None of them would really ask but
Every single day when he got home you can bet that he would be sipping liquor from the glass
This was in the summertime, 08
Right up in the end of May
9 o'clock on the dot, daddy had 10 shots same thing everyday
Started getting normal to me
But I think I'm kinda worried now
And mama don't get home until 11 and I'm sitting on my bed then I hear a sound
Daddy threw the bottle through the television
Broken glass everywhere
Screaming at the top of his lungs, stopping a bunch, he started coming up the stairs
Banging on my door now
I'm thinking that he needed help, but he cut himself
Open the door, he came in the room with blood on his hands and a belt
Guess he really did cut himself
But he was thinking bout something else (drip, drippin)
Blood on my floor, he shut the door, he started grabbing me and told me not to yell
Ali I tried to get him off of me
Tears filling up my eyes
He told me that he love me and told me to shut up, I can still hear it in my mind
And they say

[Chorus: Ali Tomineek, Denajah Jones, both ]
Why you looking scared? What you really fear?
Here, tell me what you're afraid of, I really wanna hear
I swear, it ain't just a nightmare
I can tell you what I'm afraid of, do you really wanna hear?

[Bridge: Denajah Jones]
The sun keeps shining, but I don't see it
The clouds block all the stars, so I start preaching
The sun keeps shining, but I don't see it no

[Verse 2: Ali Tomineek]
10 o'clock, 10 o'clock on the dot
I just wanna jump into the shower, mama get home in an hour
But all that I can think about
Is daddy said he'd hurt me if I was to tell her, I never could tell her
Started putting his clothes back on, stumbling outta my room
I'm tryna put the pieces together to what happened, I don't believe it, it couldn't be true
Daddy picking up the car keys now
But I'm froze and I can't stop him, my shirt torn so I'm cold and my brain nauseous, the first born, man he said I was a great daughter
Inside of me feeling empty, hollow
I get it from my daddy cause he feel the same way so we sipping bottles
Hit the throttle, in a [?]
He's whipping down the [?] to the tunnel
I stare at the ceiling and wait for mama
Heard the screaming so my neighbours knocking
Daddy speeding, didn't think if stopping, didn't lock the door so my neighbour walking looking for my daddy when they come inside
But he's swerving 90 in a 35
Coming back was never in his mind
I wipe my eyes so they don't see me cry
I change my clothes, tie my hair
I didn't want them just to find me there
Hurried down the stairs and tell em my dad ain't here and them screams didn't happen here
Daddy sped into 100 now
Lost control and the truck flipped
Body thrown, on a bloody road
A secret sitting on his drunk lips
Mama arrives, it's 3 o'clock, tears in her eyes, she with the cops
Told me the news, my heart dropped
I know you say

[Chorus: Ali Tomineek, Denajah Jones, both ]
Why you looking scared? What you really fear?
Here, tell me what you're afraid of, I really wanna hear
I swear, it ain't just a nightmare
I can tell you what I'm afraid of, I still see him in the mirror

[Outro: Ali Tomineek]
Coming to you live from the big rock
My mind got big thoughts
Like, what if it all just stopped