This song is about a person who struggles with an eating disorder, specifically Anorexia Nervosa, an eating disorder in which a person “fasts” for extended periods of time for a multitude of reasons, one of which being body insecurities. Sometimes, those who suffer with Anorexia get sick from how th...
[Verse 1]
All of my teachers were right
I use math everyday in my life
I add, subtract, divide
And most of the time it makes me wanna die
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause the number below my fear
And the number below my spine
And the numbers on the menu are always too high
[Chorus]
So I don't know how low I have to go
'Cause I wake up in my body and it never feels like home
I feel like I'm in another person's house, I can't get out
So I don't know how low I have to go
[Verse 2]
I wanna rewire my mind
So I don't care if there's a space between my thighs
It keeps me up at night
To think I'll calculate until the day I die
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause the number below my feet
And the number below my spine
And the numbers on the manual are always too high
[Chorus]
So I don't know how low I have to go
'Cause I wake up in my body and it never feels like home
I feel like I'm in another person's house, I can't get out
So I don't know how low I have to go
I don't know how low
[Bridge]
All the numbers in my mind
Are set out to ruin my life
I don't wanna let them win, but they just might
And I know this is a problem
That I'm improperly solving
When I say I'll just go lower one more time
[Chorus]
So I don't know how low I have to go
'Cause I wake up in my body and it never feels like home
I feel like I'm in another person's house, I can't get out
So I don't know how low I have to go
I don't know how low
No, I don't know how low I have to go
[Outro]
(I don't know how low)
Math was written by Steven Martinez & Sara Kays.
Math was produced by Steven Martinez.