MASKED

I split ways
Let my anger do the work for me
Just for these days
I never asked for depression
But like my dog’s passing
It must be a phase
Give me the strength
Integrity
Hoping that this ain’t the end
Prosperity
I never needed a dollar
But if it put my parents back together
I’ll gladly pay the fee
I’ve got my tuition covered
But now that I need me some help in this place
Give me an eCAF
Reverse it
Then I can see my Mommy and Daddy’s face
Drowning in emotion
Don’t know what’s wrong
What’s right
What’s dark
What’s light
Sleepin’ through the day
Can’t sleep at night
Never hesitate
I don’t wanna fight

Sacrifice the things I love
The things that distract me from this fucking conversation
I’m tryna live the best days of my life
But I can’t when I know my heart is always racing
Overloading
Overflowing
My mind with solutions
Just like a P.O Box
Difference is I wish I could do the same as everyone else
And close it with a PAD Lock

Thought I was done
Bitch I had only fucking begun
If I want it to end
It would be a gun
To my head
But my mind always told it “be gone”
I’m far from that shit
The petty pussy
Lookin’ for attention that I miss
Give me a donation
I promise I won’t waste it
But I can’t promise that I’ll use it on cannabis

Can a bitch
Get a hit of that shit
Smokin’ all my problems away
Can’t a bit of that bliss
Cover my pessimist
Personality like the fucking shade
That was thrown at me
Not covered up
And put right past me
Not loved enough
To pull back shit
And pick out the problem
That nearly turned my flesh to fucking bones

My life to soul
A corpse at home
Open casket
No phones
Just staring right at me
Not alone
Got what I wanted
Long ago
God lashing at me
Right from his throne