Marionettes

Down in silence
Holding onto hollow
Savior unstrung and dumb
Why do I keep thinking?
Let me have this
All the hidden lilies in our yard
I remember waking up in a sweat
Pearlesque gleaming;
Being pulled like teeth
I can see faint colors reflecting back at me
As I stare down at my hand
My birthstone, the one my anya told me was mine
Mute, I see her dark eyes
Heavy snow, let me apply pressure now
Flowers of the abyss
Keeping out all the light
I hide from my mom