Maplewood

[Verse 1]
There's no time for things that I perceive as bringing out the worst in me
It's hard enough to get up off the ground
When I'm holding onto useless thoughts
A fight I wish I never fought

[Chorus]
And now my back's against the wall
At least there's nowhere left to fall
Count the time it took to fix my lack of trust
I do all I can, but still it's not enough
Now I'm holding out to shed this ball and chain
I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight

[Verse 2]
I'm lusting for the little things I love
I never learned of any self-control
'Cause I just couldn't bring myself to care
So many years I wasn't there
Now I'm living with no time to spare
My patterned overthinking isn't scarce
'Cause I just couldn't bring myself to care
Myself to care

[Chorus]
And now my back's against the wall
At least there's nowhere left to fall
Count the time it took to fix my lack of trust
I do all I can, but still it's not enough
Now I'm holding out to shed this ball and chain
I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight