Many, Many

These are the perils of this prisoner's road to perdition / my anxiety, my anarchy and all my ambitions / through my prayers I hope you hear me Lord, tell me You listen / see I'm sitting and I'm twitching in a sinner's position, wishing / look, I know I speak of predictions about all I envision and even being a Christian / I talk a good one son but never seem to follow this mission / I'm a heathen with high hopes, save me I'm slipping /

My oven door's open / my crib freezing like cold shoulders but still I'm in control cause I'm the Lord's soldier / I thought the trial was over, but I was dead wrong / Jehovah had me headstrong but Satan had me dead longer / renewal of my mind, recruitment of some more soldiers / the pit of temptation, thinking that life is all over / I gave my worries to prayer, my life was all sober / until that night I felt emptiness and I wanted closure /

Life's a movie and I always been a villain / will I die before the credits, where I'm headed I ain't willing / still in the rat race, last place and all that / I live through my sins but I fight to fall back / does hell await, can I escape a dark fate? / ponder to calculate as I count my heartrate / till that date, I bow my head and I say my peace / to keep on writing rhymes is repentance to say the least /

Christians we're still susceptible to sin y'all / but what matters is what we do after that pitfall / lemme give you an example of what I'm in y'all / a sacrifice that I burned is living again y'all / I lost focus, my spirit's tilted like pinball / put me back in perspective of how many men fall / if you ain't serving the Lord then what are you in for? / the choice is yours, life begins and ends with Him y'all /

(HOOK)

11-17-02 was the day that I died / 2 months after that another day that I died / 3 months after that second moment I cried / now what that means, everyday I gotta kill what's inside / because I'm human, still I'm maneuvering through the movements / the devil can only tempt the body with what consumes it / Holy Ghost living is something I'm in pursuit of / doesn't take physical giving to witness true love /

Sometimes I'm like a terror living through trial and error / learning from my older criminal close endeavors / the Judas and sellers, killers and goons / those who I respected when they step in the room / these is the dudes I was raised with, dudes that I stayed with / predators who prey on anything cause nothing's sacred / reality was clear, do whatever to make it / mentality they share, don't have it, I'm a take it /

It's harder cause we get martyred by them spiritual bouncers / who hound us, surround us and plot for us to get us up out of the spiritual balance / umbrella us from spiritual showers / need the power from the Lord to get their evil devoured you heard / word of life the only life is Christ / Spirit battles with the flesh so you don't do what you like / and 9 times out of 10 that's out the eyes of Christ / whatever you do, imagine if it's something He like /

My role models hold bottles and drink hard / and twist pounds of green that they hold in stink jars / I thank God though these men would impact / a young and fragile mind, He let me see where sin's at / street life's so persuasive, nothing's adjacent / will I choose Him or will I embrace it? / free will, He will give what's ample / opportunity to learn from my examples /