Manipulator

I try to love you, when I really do hate you
You preyed on me when you saw that I was down
Like a coward you tried to take it from me, you manipulator
You really came for me
As a child I really looked up to you, as I think about it now its like looking up to Satan
Showing me shit that I'm not suppose to see
At Nine years old I was barely getting hard, heart beating fast when you put your hands on me
I remember when I told my mom 05/08, the tears ran down her face like a track team
I remember the night it was at Applebees, next day saw your face on the TV screen
I learned to let it go but it still comes to mind, I had to move it out my mind just so I could be alive
I Kicked, I Screamed, I Puched, I Yelled
Watch your Faggot ass rot in hell
Confusing comes to mind on a daily basis
Asking who I am, hating my self, blaming my self for shit that you put me through
Motherfucking you a P-U-S-S-Y , Pussy ass Nigga
Lord forgive me
Its hard
Hard to forgive a motherfucker that tried to destroy my life
Hard to forgive a motherfucker that stills talk to my family
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
But I’m trying
But Lord I'm gonna believe in you