Manic Depressive Episodes

[Verse 1: BxbyJxmes]
I'm praying for forgiveness, but I keep the devil in my distance
The darkness keeps me on a mission to find the light inside my visions
The hate I got is almost sickening
I'm not friends with none of you bitches
I'm walking dead amongst the living with my thoughts that sunk in trenches
Been on six different paths of pain
I just wanna cry and blame it on the rain
I can never vibe 'til I'm smoking on that stank
Only type of green that manages to keep me going sane
All I see is bodies hidden in the mist
Blood wet ground made the soil real rich
Weave a hand sign, watch 'em burn real quick
Exhaling fire while rapping with a lisp

[Verse 2: BxbyJxmes]
I'm sick of reality, hearing the melody
Defying the gravity, purging the memories
Shadows possession, my mental projection
A creative conception to show the aggression
My sadness makes classics, I write with the static
The words are like magic to stamp my own status
Maybe I'm manic, creating the panic
Oh, fuck, I can't stand it, my brain is so rancid

[Verse 3: Big Melancholy]
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Fuck my life, I don't wanna live
Instead I'll take yours and fuck my eyes
They can't ever see why they so hateful
But they gon' find out, I hide and stake out
Estates where you lay now, I take your brain, I'm—

[Verse 4: Big Melancholy]
Fucked up in manic depressive, the episodes linger
I cock the gun back, put the gun to my temple and I pull the trigger, I blow my brains out on the wall
And then I take a picture and send it to my little sister and tell her I love her, I'm sorry your brothers a sinner
But since we've got older, I've lost all of my will to give out remorse now I don't wanna live, huh (Huh)

[Verse 5: Big Melancholy]
I ride in the night with fye, but in hindsight
I am the one that should die
Take the knife, I watch as it slice while I thrive, let it dry, one hell of a night, then I'm fine
I'm honestly better off in my grave
But they won't let me leave and take away the pain, yuh
I don't have a will to live, what is there to gain? Huh
I do this for the thrill of it, what else can I say? Huh
I just want control, so why they take it all away from me?
I do not feel whole inside, I cry, leave my mind vacantly (Vacantly)