­makeup off

[Verse 1]
I try on three different shades of blue
'Cause one time he said he liked me in it
I wear my jeans down a size or two
Thinking it'll make me look different
I put off my friends, cancel our plans
They know the reason
Leave my days open, lay around hoping
I get to see him

[Chorus]
He don't know the kind of hold he's got on a girl like me
He can't tell I'm living in hell, only show what he wants to see
'Cause from the daytime through the night he consumes my crowd of mind
I don't even like the sound of me
I don't take my makeup off 'til he falls asleep

[Verse 2]
I toss and turn in the linen sheets
Turn the ringer on and put down my phone
Wondering how long before it strats to ring
All the sudden I'm back on that road
The one I know all too well
Take a left down Citadel
It's muscle memory

[Chorus]
He don't know the kind of hold he's got on a girl like me
He can't tell I'm living in hell, only show what he wants to see
'Cause from the daytime through the night he consumes my crowd of mind
I don't even like the sound of me
I don't take my makeup off 'til he falls asleep

[Bridge]
As I'm looking in the mirror, I wonder what he'd think
Would he even notice or barely recognize me?

[Chorus]
He don't know the kind of hold he's got on a girl like me
He can't tell I'm living in hell, only show what he wants to see
'Cause from the daytime through the night he consumes my crowd of mind
I don't even like the sound of me
I don't take my makeup off 'til he falls asleep
I don't take my makeup off 'til he falls asleep