Madness

[Verse 1: Black Liquid]
Yeah..
My friends have grown up and have kids
And I'm still at the crib doing s*** like this
My mom sleeps on my couch every single night
When I come home late, I check if she's alive
It's f***ing with my mind or should I say my pride
But I wouldn't change a thing
See I see the brighter side
I lost my appetite when I stopped smoking trees
And when I quit and got a job, they didn't drug test me
I've got good credit
Every month I'm making debit
Man I swear I'm making progress
This is just not ?checkers?
But the better that I'm doing ain't the better I can be
You gotta understand it's ?your? front I don't see
I'm looking way beyond
Instead of just waiting on
See it's all a part to play no matter what stage you on
Everybody's got a dream
Only thing I can't sleep
When I have a conversation they always say that s***'s deep
And I know it seems lately all I been is self hating
But I find it motivating
Life is under stimulating

[Hook]
Imagine for a second what it's like from my perspective
They tell me I'm successful and I just feel disrespected
I never tell a lie but if I did I'd say I'm special
Madness for a method I don't share the same objective

[Bridge 1]
See we live in a world where you're judged by what you have
By who and how many you f***
But nothing matters but everything does
I hate being alive, but I can't stop living x2

[Verse 2: Black Liquid]
I'm addicted
Doesn't mean that I'm an addict
It just means that I'm good at it
There's no need to be combative
Erosive and compulsive
My composure's like a habit
I'm a force and feel I'm forced
Sophisticated savage
I learned to do the math
To say that I'm above the average
I talk about the choices
Cause I've always known the chances
Defined find my circumstances
My mind I made a labyrinth
Surroundings don't astound me
I don't care about what's happened
I've got 10 bands
Guess that means that I'm a rapper
F*** a baby and some pampers
I'll be happy never after
We can talk the benefits
But it's never been a factor
Call your preacher and your pastor
See who picks it up faster

[Hook]

[Bridge 2]
A wife, kids, a 9 to 5 full-time job with salary pay
Clean eating and gym memberships
Family reunions and theme park trips
The f*** you think this is
I hate being alive, but I can't stop living x2

[Verse 3: Black Liquid]
Grant me serenity
To forgive those who trespass
I don't deserve to breathe
You know what's in my heart
Every thought that I think
You keep my eyes open even though I got to blink
Disguised as curiosity
It's often animosity that leads me to the edge
And a couple different beds
I cut off all my dreads
But there's no amount of stress
That matches all my passion
The inevitable what's next
They say that I'll get signed
But all I ever do is sin
They say that they co-sign
I ain't s*** without my friends
As fans I understand
Often change like the wind
The power of the pen
Looking outs looking in

[Hook]

[Bridge 3/Outro]
Today someone told me that they're too old for this s***
Well, I'm still too young
And while they look back, I only look ahead
'Cause I know how all this ends
I hate being alive, but I can't stop living x3