Mad Real

[Verse 1]
Nothing can make this man chill, making me wanna grab steel
Pop this seal, end this headache, I ain't talking advil
All I see is fake love, look at me keeping it mad real
If money make the world go round
Understand that I am at a stand still
I swear to god that it's like an anvil on top of my shoulder blades
Never seen a colder rage, lately no soul with aids
Vodka mixed with percocet, bitch I am a nervous wreck
If you come into my bubble, i'm catching a body like circus net
If you ain't learned this yet, then class in session
I'm past aggression, this my last confession (Amen)
Never judge a book by its cover before you read it
You ever feel you need to kill for the things that you needed
But you just keep it a secret, deep down you're feeling defeated
You can't eat, sleep, your body's weak, and your ready to leave it
Because it's hard being light when your surrounded by darkness
It's hard to spread love when you're feeling so heartless

[Hook x2]
If you think that you know me
I got some issues, and some deep, dark secrets
(I feel like i'm sinking)
If I share my pain with you, would it be an inconvenience?
(This is my weakness)

[Verse 2]
I'm pacin my minds racing, red line, throttle stuck
Never seen this side of me, cuz I usually keep it bottled up
Like how the fuck do I keep calm, these problems that I speak on
Im going off the deep end, leap then... (he gone)
Hi, welcome to my abyss, you can all die in lion piss
Another psychiatrist, I tried but I ain't buying this
Shit that they tell me but they possibly write
Like, the voices that I hear in my head that I constantly fight
And honestly I just might snap, i'm trying to keep this man afloat
But i'm sinking like a banana boat, i'm sick in the head, no antidote
I can't stand it no, i've turned into an animal
You try stopping me, and ima let this hammer go
And i'll do it in an instant, end your resistance
I don't need assistance, you better keep your distance
Or you gonna have to kill me man, do you feel me fam?
Now do you understand... who I really am?

[Hook x2]

[Verse 3]
I wake up in a cold sweat, I ain't got no check
Another eviction notice, and now i'm in more debt
I'm fighting like a war vet with my split personality
It's worse than you think, young lyte versus reality
You already know that i'm a wack job
It's who I be I don't act odd
He's way too gone...
Please bring me back god!
I'm typically poor, i'm despicable lord
Chemically imbalanced, strangled by umbical chord
And i'm biblical for, because i'm afraid of my dark side
You can look in the archives, and open my heart wide
It's empty, amend me, don't tempt me, needing to vent see
Lucifer or God? I don't know who sent me
Woot sa, woot sa problems I got a list yo
Bitch, i'm a schitzo, only calm with a fistful
Pills and a pistol, so you can go and judge me
This is who I am... so hate me or love me!

[Hook x2]