‘Lying To Myself’ comes from the deepest form of trauma Portair´s life has encountered and it took many years for him to unpack it to see if he could make sense of it. He thinks that we all have a tendency to lie to ourselves when we are faced with pulling apart the damage and finding a way around...
[Verse 1]
Head underneath my pillow
Melting fast like april snow
Try to breathe but it comes slow
So i make do with what I know
I lament in the pouring rain
I’d rather wash away my pain
Can’t spare the time to entertain
Afraid of loss afraid of change
[Chorus]
So I keep lying lying to myself
Tell myself I don’t need help
Lie myself right into hell
Oh I keep lying lying to myself
[Verse 2]
The moon is laughing at me now
Voices echo in and out
I made my peace with a war of doubt
Tilt my head back underground
My brother took the brunt of it
While I found weakness in my grip
Took nine years to see what I missed
Afraid that I’m too late for this
[Chorus]
So I keep lying lying to myself
Tell myself I don’t need help
Lie myself right into hell
Oh I keep lying, lying to myself
[Outro]
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Lying to Myself was written by Portair & James Droll.
Lying to Myself was produced by Portair.
Portair released Lying to Myself on Fri Jun 19 2020.