Lyfe story Pt.1

(Intro)
This is a rap but it's also a story

I had a life but it wasn't perfect, growing up with my two brothers, mom and my dad. Fast forward around 5 or 6 years old my dad went to prison, till this day they never told me wat happened. I would never forget it at the age of 10 CPS picked me up. Let me tell you wat happened, I was in school mind you the day after my mom's birthday, they called me down to the office, in my head i'm thinking am i in trouble? so i get to the office, i'm asking what's going on? The CPS worker asked me, are you "J.....", I say "yea that's me". They said we are here to pick you up. I started to cry. All I'm thinking at that point is...

Can I see my mom?
Can I say bye to her?
Why me?
Why me?

It's crazy to experience that at 10 years old to get put into foster care, atleast im not alone, I got my brother. I started to house flop. I got to my third house, the family there didn't care about me, I could stay out all night and they wouldn't bother to ask me "how are you doing?" or "are you okay?" I was so depressed I almost committed suicide. So I went to this mental hospital for about 2 months. I couldn't eat or sleep. Fast forward to present time, I'm still in foster care been in foster care for almost 5 years. They terminated my mother's rights so that means i can't have contact with her what so ever. I can't talk to her, I can't see her and it really hurts. To be honest, I'm really good at hiding behind a mask, you wouldn't know if i was hurtin' unless i told you or if I was to start breaking down. Till this day I still ask myself...

Why me?
Why me?
Why me?
Why me?

I used to smoke and drink like crazy, I still do but not as much as I used to. I used to do it to make my pain go away. I know I was young but I didn't look my age so people thought I was older. So I started hanging out wit the older kids. I really didn't have a normal childhood, I took my first sip of Hennessy at 9, smoked my first blunt at 10. Now I look back and be like damnn I really changed. Now I wonder what it would be like if I was still wit my mom...

That's my life story
Life story
That's my life story
Life story