Luxury Of Self Destruction

I know it starts when I stop to dream
So I’ll find the dark before the dark finds me
Deliberate moves to be in
Well, I can’t afford the time I need
The time I need to start to heal
So I push my head down into these feelings

Ah, the luxury of self destruction, to be self aware
While my mind malfunctions into disrepair
Smile, I walk to get a drink from the machine
Ah, the light inside the corridor screams

I know it starts when I lose my sheen light
In the dark with no dopamine
So delicatе, cool, unbeing
Cause I can’t give up thе queen
I feel like I’ve no time to start to heal
Pushing hard into these feelings

Ah, the luxury of self destruction, to be self aware
While my mind malfunctions into disrepair
Smile, and I walk to get a drink from the machine
Ah, the light inside the corridor screams

I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed
Worried thoughts and wonders they keep rolling ‘round my head
I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed
Problems keep on coming I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead

Never did I ever analyse that dream
No I could've put together all the things I’ve seen
Surrealist standup scene
Ah!

(Self destruction!)

I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed
Worried thoughts and wonders they keep rolling ‘round my head
I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed
Problems keep on coming I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead