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I see myself going backwards in time, today
To places I forget I've seen
Cut in the red clay, of rotten sermons I was made to replay
My lungs have never felt more clean

Don't you believe me? I've been here from the start
No matter what will happen I still love you
Do I feel guilty? I've only done my best
I'll never trust you like I ??? again

This feels just like my hometown
Even though things have changed
So much I can't recognize my friends
Dealing with ramifications of my dissuasion
When it comes to my hopes and dreams
Is it selfish if there's nowhere to go but dead

All your problems, leave them behind
Let loose and have fun for just one night
Don't you know you're a sight to behold?
Radiating candlelight
Whispered voices, forgotten rite
Something major has been put on hold

Have you ever been in silence?
Heard the laughter in the quiet?
Have the walls and ceiling ever felt alive?
Has your hand cut through like butter
??? sea of clay
And suddenly the felt of your body no longer feels like it's safe
(One, two, three!)

In time, today
To places I forget I've se-e-e-e-e
And I'm trapped in a panopticon made of the fabric of being
I fear I might just go insane

(Has this ever happened to you?) (???, it's falling apart as we speak)
(You're a bit scary sometimes) (I did everything I was ??? to, and it didn't work!) (New discipline) (Obey) (???) (???) (Rules, are made to be broken) (???) (They don't care about you) (???) (You were supposed to fucking listen to me!) (No-one can be trusted) (???) (My life a movie for real) (Not everything is about you!) (???) (Granted, it may be sheltered, but it's a good life nonetheless) (Maybe you're fucking useless) (???) (???)