Lucy

[Verse]
I think about the life that I had
That shit was great even when I thought I had it so bad
I took my privelige for granted man that's makin' me sad
I had a house and a wife and shit I was a dad
We named her Lucy she was gorgeous I just loved to be around her
But the situation changed when the rumours came in louder
I was working out of state, putting food onto our counter
And apparently my wife was fuckin' dudes up on her counter
Yo at first I ain't believe it had no proof of the encounter
My family knew the truth but I was foolish and would vouch for
Her and say she didn't 'cause she loved me too much
And she would never do that we got Lucy and such
I guess that I was wrong 'cause when I finally left my job
I got a flight to be back home I was surpised at Lucy's mom
Bought my baby flowers and a couple of gifts
Nothin' big just some chocalates and a charm for her wrist
But when I open up the door I seen her down on her chest
With some random dude behind her I don't know who he is
Now it made a lot of sense she was cheatin' on me
I wasn't even mad at her I was mad I would believe
That she was innocent but I'm still giving her the benefit
A doubt because I truly love her I don't wanna end this shit
We tried to forget it but it's difficult to get a grip
And when I was at work she just left me man she took my kid
I tried to reason with her said that we could divorce
But can I see my baby girl? I need to teach her remorse
'Cause I know you won't do it you gon' turn my kid to a whore
Said I'm not allowed to see her so I took her to court
The judgde told me there's a law that if the kid's really yours
You have the right to see them and be a parent and I was sure
I was the father so I took a test with Lucy to be
Involved with her but it turns out that Lucy ain't me
And that's okay I love her to death
And even if she ain't blood I'll be the father I can
But the law says I couldn't unless I'm married to Beth
But we divorced 'cause she cheated she created this mess
I lost my family, and that shit drove me to drink
But if I drank enough liqour I controlled what I think
I started missing work I was too hungover to bring
Myself to leave the house now I'm broke and it stings
They finally fire me my anxiety's back
Because I can't pay the bills and I'm behind on my rent
Where will I live if I'm evicted? Man I'm trying to wrap
My head around the situation but I cry when I'm stressed
And I'm stressed now I'm stressed out I'm on the brink of flippin' out
I don't got a house, toiler or sink
What you expect a man to do when he was down on his knees
The bank tellin' me to pay them some ridiculous fee
But I don't have it fuck it you can take my estate
Shit I could sleep inside my car until my payment is straight
I did that for a couple weeks until I woke up in pain
And realized it's been a few days since I even ate
I pawned my car just to get a little cash
Hopin' that I could make it last
Until I'm back on my feet
But obviously that ain't gon' work
When I seen what they quoted me on what my car was worth
I ain't worth shit; worthless
Plus the bank is searchin'
For my assets to liquidate what's on my person
What's the purpose? God can you tell me
You put me on the streets and I did was try to help thee
And I hate you for it still I can't change it
So I just buckle down and pray that I can face it
I miss my wife and people seem to change quick
So who am I to say I wouldn't put her through the same shit