This song was on Stevan’s Soundcloud but it has been deleted. The song can be found on Youtube. It describes Stevan’s place in life around the time of July 2017 when the song was made. In the song he uses clips of LionHeart’s “Pretty Hurts” Poem On his tumblr he posted about his life at the time.
[LionHeart]
"Each morning, none of us discuss how tough it is, or how much of a struggle it is to wake up and have blind dates with a mirror that wishes it could see other people"
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Seven days up in the hospital
Eye infection if you need to know
My direction, looking minimal
Four of the seven I spent alone
Thought about so many things
Granny dying like a month ago
Breaking up with my gf the infection in my optical
Family tripping cause of pain, I've been feeling so plain
Hating everything about myself, I was like nigga damn
It's been a hell of a year yeah
Meaning this years been hell yeah
I've been dealing with a lot
But it's great for my music
Other than beats I'm useless
Soundcloud rapper this, Soundcloud rapper that
I just want to be me, F taking it back
I would say where I'm at
Home, can't swear, mom, might hear
Damn, me, and my fear, and this year
I don't know how I feel about it man, I don't know how to feel at all
Will I fly?, Will I fall?, I don't know how to feel man
I don't know how to feel at all
Life right now, right now, right now (kinda sucks)
Life right now, right now, right now (kinda sucks)
Life, it sucks (it sucks)
Right now, (right now)
(Thats what I told her)
Life, it sucks (it sucks)
Right now, (right now)
(That's what I told her)
Don't you want some better things
Things, things x3
Don't you want some better things
Things, things x3
In life, in life
Ooh, in life
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[LionHeart]
"We're insecure by default. The world's biggest joke is that we are all born equally. It doesn't take a genius to see our suffering from self-worth. Conformity has put a war on identity and education has been it's attention. Look, not everyone can fit into a room, but it seems like everyone is trying to. Depending on how you feel, that is your opinion"