Love Is Suicide

[Verse 1: Kam Michael]
Yeah, I hate that I forget of what I have until its gone
I wish that I could turn back time, 'cause you're the one
When I try to open up, inside my heart is on a run
But I put it on my grate, 'cause you're the only one I want
And nowadays being in love is do or die
Trying to get you out my head is like a mental suicide
I just want to find a way to make it you and I
But the drama all around us got me feeling mortified
I miss the old times that we spent, now every time we talk, you just throw another fit
I try to make amends but every time I do, it ends
Tell me why the fuck should I just go and lose another friend over bullshit
Another day, another fight
Lately, I've been tryna fix it all, make it right
Used to be the one that I held every-night, I'm really broken down but I say I'm alright

[Verse 2: Kam Michael]
I want to tell you everything, hard to find the words
Every time I try to talk to you, my stomach turns
My heart's cold but I still feel the burns
Every night when I lay down, I swear I feel the worst
You and I
Know, this shit is do or die
Trying to get you out my head is like a mental suicide
I've been done, I need to find a way out
All the pain that I have it, could never minimize
Every time I try to makeup, it's like you never listen
What the fuck is wrong with me
I'm losing when I'm winning
Everybody that's around me says I'm better off forgetting
But it's hard when all I know is it was done from the beginning
You made it hard for me to trust
Tell me why you make it hard for me to fall in love
Let me down slow, yeah you put me in the dust
I was searching for the one, you were looking for the lust