Lotus

[Verse 1]
I've spent long days and long nights
Tryna make the wrongs right
Still I end up slippin'
So I gotta make the songs tight
My greatest fear is that I'm putting up the wrong fight
Growing up I always thought everything would be alright
I was sadly mistaken
My past had left me face down in the pavement
Addy's taken crushin' Xannies in basements
But before I meet my maker I should make me a statement
And I pray that my achievements never make me complacent
Since a youngin' I been terrorized
Fairer skin and clearer eyes
Never been afraid of death
Only ever fearin' lies
You want the truth then here it lies
Blood across the tile floor
Wild as a child
Remember how I used to smile more
I
Peeped how they throw that shade underhanded and
How they all dismiss it when they fail to understand it man
I swear they lookin' at me like I'm from another planet damn
I guess the elevation and estrangement just go hand in hand
But that's alright I'm always fine alone
Hunnid nights I lie awake
Put my phone on silent mode
Hit my line?
You gon' prolly hear that fuckin' dial tone
It ain't no use in tryna reach me
Shit I'm miles gone

[Chorus]
And I'm always wastin' time wonder where them hours go
Funny how it's from a piece of shit a fuckin' flower grow
Always been a fuck up but I never been a coward tho
Prolly out on Brower takin' showers in the sour smoke
Said I'm always wastin' time wonder where them hours go
Funny how it's from a piece of shit a fuckin' flower grow
Always been a fuck up but I never been a coward tho
Prolly out on Brower takin' showers in the sour smoke

[Verse 2]
And I still remember long nights
No sleep
P-side slidin' in the Honda whip
4 deep
East side ridin' just to hit a lick
Make sure that the swisher and the bitch is thick
Always into trouble 'cuz we're young and we don't give a shit
Never have
Never will
Clever kid
Forever skilled
Riding 'round the city always lookin' for some better thrills
And it ain't take too long to find some
Know my momma find it hard to say "yeah that there's my son"
Know my pops is losin' sleep over the shit that I done
But understand I'm out her makin' waves
They're tryna ride one
My mind runs
On and on it's fuckin' with me mentally
'Cuz I wouldn't be so different if it wasn't meant to be
Tell the reaper I ain't playin' pussy if he sent for me
And that ain't suicidal if it's meant to go I'll let it be
I just know that I ain;t madde for nine to fives or ten to threes
My tendencies
Led me to the places where I tend to be
Posted up
Pissed off with a pocket full of potent stuff
Know they only fuckin' with me 'cuz the songs I wrote and plus
I opened up my scope and seen the vision now I'm bolder much
Older in my soul y'all shook with just a shoulder brush

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