Lost You

Verse 1: (AJ)
I don't wanna lose you
But I lost you
It hurts so much that I take anti depressants
Never hesitant, progression
Depression in my life
I got a knife for my wrist
Memberance of our lists
Membered you got pissed
Then the clock hit fucking zero
Killed yourself
Why’d you do this to yourself?
Taken down a shelf
Hung yourself with a belt
Ima fucking kill myself
Got my antidepressants and anxiety pills
Hopefully this'll give me thrill
Maybe it'll lemme see her again
See her again in heaven
Even after her neck was bent
I wanna see her
My intent
Ima take some codeine
Mix it into lean
To give me relief
Fuck with these ima OD
Ima die a fucking OG
Killed myself because I lost someone
Shit that helps a ton
Maybe I’ll wake up in the hospital
No ill die
Goodbye
I'll reunite with her
I didn't know this is where I would turn
I lost her
Fuck

Verse 2:(Zaint)
Yeah, I've been feeling numb
Shits been getting so crazy now
Can't even seem to think straight without having a complete meltdown
Yeah, I haven't been right in my brain
All these demons, yeah, they coming the next day
And you can't live without me but I don't think you did
Fuck it with everything crazy I’m a love sick kid
I swear I feel like I’m a [?]
Listen with hood but it hasn't been the same
But with my life [?]
Told me it’ll be fine but I just want you to be here right by my side
Everything I imagine, I won't be alive
Told me forever I guess that was a lie
I feel like I'm sad because I sit and I cry

Chorus: (Zaint)
I can't seem to numb this pain
It just won’t go away
I swear that I've been caged
I want to see your face
Can't seem to numb this pain
It just won't go away
I swear that I have changed
I just want you, hey, hey

Verse 3: (AJ)
It feels like everyone left me
You don't understand I feel empty
I've fallen into depression lately
But we're all depressed ain't we?
You and her
Him and I
He and me
Ima get ready to flee
This world then I'll be free
Take a couple xanax and codeine
Down the methadone
Oh im so alone
Grab the belt to break my bones
Shit'll kill my dome
Grab the chair and hang the belt
I don't care I hate myself
Fuck
I'm sorry for all the pain I've dealt
I just wanted to help
Goodbye
I'm so sorry
I'm going to hell
No one can stop me
Please don't cry over me
Just let me be
I'm choking, I can't breathe
I feel so alive
I'm hoping this'll take my life
Then I'll be dead
Gone and died
Put on my gravestone
Fuck this life
Then it'll be done
I can't hide
This shits getting tight
I can see the fucking light
The clocks bout to hit zero
And I can't find my hero
I'm so alone
Goodbye
Fuck