Lost (Reimagined)

[Intro]
Dear God, make me a bird so I can fly far
Far, far away from here

[Verse 1]
I think I lost myself some time ago (Time ago)
I'm still learnin', still tryna grow (Grow)
My heart has turned in codeine from my mama, no
Well, here we go
Geronimo
Oopsie daisies, times is truly crazy
Try and givin' me the blame, but knew you played me (What?)
My father left when I was young, I'm who he made me
So another version of him is who I can't be
Quite frankly, this pain is startin' to change me (It is)
What you can't see is what's makin' me angry (You can't see that shit)
I'm tryna stay me, but it's fuckin' hard (It's hard)
If this life is like a car, then mine won't fuckin' start (Why?)
Hmm, just put your trust in Mark (Please)
That's what I told her before I crushed her heart
I know it wasn't smart
It wasn't real, but shit, I don't know how to fuckin' feel
I didn't mean to do you so damn wrong
I just ain't felt no love in so damn long (Woah)
Everybody left me on my own
But everybody text me on my phone
"I need that, Mark, I need this" (What?)
Guess I ain't human and I don't need shit (Yup)
Your mama told me I wasn't gon' be shit
And I'm the one you wanna be with
Damn
But honestly, I'm nothin' like I'm tryna be
My granny told me plant the seeds if I can't find the tree
How in the hell can I find a thing if I'm still findin' me? (How?)
Hard to recognize a trap until your mind is free

[Chorus]
I'm lost
So lost
So lost
I'm lost, I'm lost, so lost
I'm lost
Never perfect, time in, uh
Gotta search to find it, huh
I heard many times that men don't cry, but it hurts to hide it, yeah
Is it worth your conscience, no?
Will you keep your promise, though?
With all this trauma floodin' your mind, nigga, [?]

[Verse 2]
Had dreams of flyin' leers, now my only dream is to be happy here
This whole world is actually weird, I just pray that the hate never match the cheers (No)
Used to wish my dad was here, now I don't wish for shit, I'm just glad I'm here, uh
I wanna be what he wasn't, so my kids can be what I wasn't (Yes)
See, we needed each other, been lost since you left, R.I.P to my brother
R.I.P to my brother
They love seein' me suffer
Why?
Why?

[Chorus]
Never perfect, time in, uh
Gotta search to find it, huh
I heard many times that men don't cry, but it hurts to hide it, yeah
Is it worth your conscience, no?
Will you keep your promise, though?
With all this trauma floodin' your mind, nigga, [?]
I'm lost
So lost
So lost
I'm lost, I'm lost, so lost
I'm lost