Lost Myself

[Chorus: Jordan Meyer & Hi-Rez]
I lost myself (I'm lost)
Don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)
I tried a million times to fix my life but it keeps falling through (keep falling)
Is it karma? (Is it?)
Do I deserve the pain I'm going through? (Do I deserve it?)
Will I be all all right?
Will I find the light and get up out of here?

[Verse 1: Hi-Rez]
I was so lost, couldn't find myself at all
At times, it felt like God ain't answering my calls
I could feel my life slipping through my hands
Failure hit hard, guess God had other plans
Nights are so rough and my mind full of doubt
Kept on thinking, "Am I ever gonna make it out?"
Ask me how I'm doing and I say that I'm fine
Knowing it's a lie
Fake another smile
Every time I try, fall apart so fast
Living in the past and I felt so trapped
Finally I got my life on track
I'm moving forward and not looking back
Living in fear, allowing the devil to steer
Now, God in control and I'm seeing it clear
Writing this music with all of my tears
Blood and sweat I put in over the years
Wondering if I deserve the pain
Was it karma for all my mistakes?
All that we can do is go and try
Lately I've been feeling so alive

[Chorus: Jordan Meyer]
I lost myself
Don't know what to do (What to do)
I tried a million times to fix my life but it keeps falling through
Is it karma?
Do I deserve the pain I'm going through?
Will I be all all right?
Will I find the light and get up out of here?

[Verse 2: Hi-Rez]
Back then I felt the darkness closing in
Faith was feeling lost and my hope was getting thin
Kept on falling down, got back up every time
Thought it was the end, almost gave up trying
The struggle was so brutal, tested all I had inside
But I kept hoping that I reached the other side
I believed eventually that I would be break free
Didn't care how long it would go and take me
Strength in my heart, that was enough
Grateful to God for making me tough
I've been doing worse and always survived
Done with the drugs, done with the lies
Trying to change, nothing would stick
Failures loud, it's making me sick
But there was the piece of me deep within me
That wouldn't let me quit
I trust I'll make it when the road gets long
Got hope up in my soul to keep me strong
It's time I leave my pain up in the past
I know this fight ain't gon' be my last

[Chorus: Jordan Meyer]
I lost myself
Don't know what to do
I tried a million times to fix my life but it keeps falling through
Is it karma?
Do I deserve the pain I'm going through?
Will I be all all right?
Will I find the light and get up out of here?

[Outro: Jordan Meyer]
Get up out of here
I'm gonna find myself