Lost My Mind

[Chorus: Adam Calhoun, Mesus]
I lost my mind the other day
And I don't know, aye!
If it's safe for me to be alone
And I don't really often pray
But I know, aye!
I can't make it down this road alone

[Verse 1: Adam Calhoun]
My anger gets the best of me, been prayin' like a broken record
Angels come and rescue me, I'm yellin', "Open up the Heavens!"
Had another panic attack, call the paramedics
Where the fuck's my Xanax's at? I know, I sound pathetic

[Verse 2: Adam Calhoun]
I feel lost, I ain't soft, so I on't talk a lot
Spend a lot of time sleepin', hospital parkin' lot
Stay awake at night thinkin', "How I get these thoughts to stop?"
I tried drinkin', mix my pills with a lot of scotch

[Verse 3: Adam Calhoun]
Been to the bottom of the barrel, and I'm so glad
That I made it out, but every now and then, I go back
Torn between right and wrong, my tears hit the note pad
Sooner, later, gotta let it go, or you go mad

[Chorus: Adam Calhoun, Mesus]
I lost my mind the other day
And I don't know, aye!
If it's safe for me to be alone
And I don't really often pray
But I know, aye!
I can't make it down this road alone
I lost my mind the other day
And I don't know, aye!
If it's safe for me to be alone
And I don't really often pray
But I know, aye!
I can't make it down this road alone

[Verse 4: Mesus]
I remember, as a teenager, I had anger
Momma said Dad would chase it down with alcohol, I wrote it all on pads of paper
Never thought a pen could help, with my mental health
I've been through hell, tried to hide behind a smile, but never hid it well

[Verse 5: Mesus]
With this chip, big as hell, on my shoulder, like a boulder
Heart is on my sleeve, leave me alone, bitch, don't come any closer
Like I'm holdin' myself hostage, and makin' bomb threats
But these are not threats, 'bout to explode, I promise

[Verse 6: Mesus]
Docs say I should be on meds, my homie took 'em, now he's dead
Big pharma, big tech, drug us while collecting checks
We used to fightin' continents, now we fight in comment threads
Ain't no common sense no more, don't ask me why I'm on the edge

[Chorus: Adam Calhoun, Mesus]
I lost my mind the other day
And I don't know, aye!
If it's safe for me to be alone
And I don't really often pray
But I know, aye!
I can't make it down this road alone
I lost my mind the other day
And I don't know, aye!
If it's safe for me to be alone
And I don't really often pray
But I know, aye!
I can't make it down this road alone