Lost in my mind

[Verse 1]
Lost in my mind
I’ve been longing to find
Something off inside
Cause this life is costly but I
Rhyme just to let it all
Just define what I’m
Trying to destabilize
I made this cage
And of rhymes
That I hate and
I create these pages
With no intention of
Hating but damn
It’s amazing how
Many whack rappers
Are famous
I got find a way
To escape this insaneness
Place with the drapes
In the pool of blood
I’ve shaded in my mind
Like I displayed it
Cause I’m rated
And I bet I were gone
No one would debate
Whether I was good or bad
They would. Quickly decide
Of the memories I left behind
And that’s honestly been bothering me
Cause I can never
Get through this pain
And this shit in my brain
That’s kept me captivated with the anger hatred annihilated
These restraints keep these rhymes

[Chorus]
I'm as dark as October
'Specially when I'm sober
The devil be in control of
Everything that I show yah
See my image is colder
Than the vision you know of
I'm no witness to Noah
But I can drown you to know a
Better place where we go up
Or down as we were told but
You go alone so just hold up
Let me kill you and roll up
A blunt till you show up....

I'm as dark as October
'Specially when I'm sober
The devil be in control of
Everything that I show yah
See my image is colder
Than the vision you know of
I'm no witness to Noah
But I can drown you to know a
Better place where we go up
Or down as we were told but
You go alone so just hold up
Let me kill you and roll up
A blunt till you show up....

[Verse 2]
I know God is pure and if allowed it will ignite you
I know Satan personally he will always fight you
If you feed him
You think that you need him
You think you can beat him
I learned to just breathe in
And be present
I no longer mean menace
I wish just to feel happy
All the while I see every
Body trying to escape their karma
But all this shit is necessary, no reason to stop it
Only to accept it - Flow and let it happen - Tried to forget it - Look, I have been tested -
Know I've been battling with shit like depression - But now I feel better - I know I will reach heaven
No longer a villain
I can feel the spirits
I can hear them whisper
Shakin’ off the shiver
I will not grow bitter
I'll only grow fitter
I'll only grow better

[Chorus]
I'm as dark as October
'Specially when I'm sober
The devil be in control of
Everything that I show yah
See my image is colder
Than the vision you know of
I'm no witness to Noah
But I can drown you to know a
Better place where we go up
Or down as we were told but
You go alone so just hold up
Let me kill you and roll up
A blunt till you show up....

I'm as dark as October
'Specially when I'm sober
The devil be in control of
Everything that I show yah
See my image is colder
Than the vision you know of
I'm no witness to Noah
But I can drown you to know a
Better place where we go up
Or down as we were told but
You go alone so just hold up
Let me kill you and roll up
A blunt till you show up....

[Outro]
I'm as dark as October
'Specially when I'm sober
The devil be in control of
Everything that I show yah
See my image is colder
Than the vision you know of
I'm no witness to Noah
But I can drown you to know a
Better place where we go up
Or down as we were told but
You go alone so just hold up
Let me kill you and roll up
A blunt till you show up....