Lost her in october

[Verse 1: sadtxnshi]
I feel alive when I'm by your side
It's alright that you take your time
Hope that I am on your mind
I see your eyes, I know you cried
I'm fighting my demons just for you
Give me a reason to go through
All of this when you're not around
Want to scream but I can't make a sound

[Chorus: sadtxnshi]
I hate the fucking way you talk to me now
Took a Xanax and I'm feeling fucking free now (Free now)
It's so hard for me to know that it is over (It's over)
Fucking hate that I lost her in October

[Verse 2: IBleedICare]
I'm not okay but did you care, anyway?
I'm not okay, but I won't beg you to stay
I wish you were here by my side
But now I only have my feelings that died
Tell me who I'll find behind the door
Now that I don't have you anymore
Tell mе who I'll find behind the door
Now that I don't have you anymorе

[Verse 3: sadtxnshi]
Girl, you know I won't forget you when you're gone
I will smoke another bong just to make another song, yeah
I don't care about myself, I hope I'll die soon
I really wanna die soon, I wish you'd be in my room (Die soon)
I don't wanna feel this way getting high everyday
Girl, you know I'm not okay, no, this is not a phase
Fuck I don't stop bleeding, girl, you took away my breathing
Hoping that my heart stops beating
My life doesn't have a meaning (Have a meaning)

[Chorus: sadtxnshi]
I hate the fucking way you talk to me now
Took a Xanax and I'm feeling fucking free now (Free now)
It's so hard for me to know that it is over (It's over)
Fucking hate that I lost her in October

[Post-Chorus: IBleedICare]
Fucking hate it that I lost her in October
Trying to stay alive but it won't last forever
It's hard to stay alive and to stay sober
I hate to know that it's fucking over
What should I feel?
This doesn't feel real
What should I feel?
This doesn't feel real