Losing My Mind

Baby girl you were my everything
I even thought about a wedding ring
You were my angle and my happiness in every dream
You showed me things in my life that I had never seen
Now I'm starting at my phone cuz it never rings
Everyday is a different fight and yo I wish I could die and live a different life
Cause when you had nowhere to go I let you spend the night
And every time you couldn't sleep I always held you tight
I can't beliеve you took your life
Crazy cuz we had a son on thе way and I was trying to bring you closer
You kept running away
Now my hearts so freaking broken I feel nothing but hate
Cuz you never gave me nothing but something to say
And yo I never got to say goodbye
And I apologize for all the times I made you cry
And I been hitting up your phone I know you won't reply
But I've been feeling so alone I can't even lie
Now I'm drowning in depression, fighting demons
Baby girl you were a blessing
I really mean it
And I just pray to God that I'm dreaming, yo, I can't believe it
Baby you gave me a reason I feel so defeated
I will give up everything to have you next to me
I never told you this but you made me a better me
Even though we had a son that I'll never see, I should have been there for you, like you were there for me
Baby girl rest in peace

[Chorus]
And yo I'm losing myself
I'm losing my mind
People ask me how I'm feeling I tell them, "I'm fine"
Hide my pains with a smile keep my feelings inside
I'm depressed yo and I can't even lie

I hate how people change, it's like nothing can never stay the same
And yo I want to blow my brains so I don't fill the pain
And all those pills for depression I threw 'em down the drain
Cause It just gives me a feeling that I just can't explain
Losing focus, I don't have nobody else
And yo I'm broken and hopeless and all by myself
And nobody every listens when I cry for help
A lot of times we lose our minds so we can find ourselves
Have you ever seen your girl with another guy
Or waking up late night seeing your mother cry
Or getting news out the blue that your cousin died
If people show their true colors then I'm color blind
Rub my eyes, hoping I can see it
Tell me that you love me girl I'm hoping that you mean it
If you did, why I'm in your recently deleted
Used to be my angel, now you just one of my demons
Another reason I deal with the pain
Instead of crying in the storm I learned to dance in the rain
I gotta follow my heart but I'm taking my brain
It's been like this from the start and yo it drives me insane
Plus I hate it how we fell apart
I should've known even shadows leave you in the dark
The only thing you left me with was a broken heart
My mind in so many places I don't know where to start
Don't know where to start

[Chorus]
And yo I'm losing myself
I'm losing my mind
People ask me how I'm feeling I tell them, "I'm fine"
Hide my pains with a smile keep my feelings inside
I'm depressed yo and I can't even lie
Can't even lie