Lose you?

Closed eyes at night
Dreaming if you wanted to be mine
You fight my heart

'Cause if I roll with you, roll with you
Will you too?
I'm so close to you, close to you
I'm confused
If I told you I loved you would I lose you?
I don't know

'Cause I met you at a time I needed you
On a sunny day with some honeydew
You smiled always and then I knew
I was a goner and you knew it too
My heart was on fire
Your desire
You were a drug and I couldn't get higher
You asked me to spend the weekend
Before I got a chance to breathe in
You took me on a date to a cafe
Halfway I recognized you might like me partly
Hardly I waited 'till we hit the movies
Losing hope that we ever had something
Nothing left to hold onto romantically
We were only so platonically involved
In a month of our lives
No matter how hard that I tried

I wanna tell you what's on my mind
But I'm stuck in a loop and I can't decide
'Cause I think if I told you, you'd think I lied
But maybe it would work and be just fine
Maybe I'm just paranoid and think too much
Or maybe I'm just not thinking enough
I'm writing this like a list of pros and cons
Picking petals from a flower, "Love me or love me not"
I don't wanna watch this end
Let's go to that cafe again
I'll pay for you if it's not much
And maybe that’ll be enough