Looking for Myself

[Intro]
Look, uh

[Verse 1]
I made it out and it was all grind
I ain't been back to my neighborhood in a long time
I don't feel bad about it, tell me, am I wrong or right?
'Cause these streets never gave me nothin' but a harder life
Yeah, I dropped out, got my GED in prison
Hasn't been one single time that I've needed it, I should mention
Even though I'm not around I can still feel the tension
They callin' me a star, but I don't even like attention
I don't mean to be offensive but
Most of the time I'd rather be alone
I'm gettin' out of this town and turnin' off my phone
I feel likе nobody miss you until you really gone
Until you really gonе

[Chorus]
I've been lookin' for myself
At the bottom of an empty bottle
I've been lookin' for myself
You know I'll be here tomorrow
Wish these old barstools and faded bar tops
Could tell you stories that they've heard (Yeah)
These old tattoos and faded scars
All got some kind of story that they serve
And I'm just tryna get a better hold of my life
Why does everything that's wrong for me always feel right?
I'm just tryna get a better hold of my life
Why does everything that's wrong for me always feel right?

[Verse 2]
Look, I know it's hard to understand to me
Don't do holidays with no family
Childhood full of hungry nights
Handcuffs and piss tests randomly
Hard times made a man of me
I was out the house before I could drive
I was sellin' weed, jumpin' couch to couch
Doin' everything I could to survive
I had a dream that I sang a song
And it started playin' on radio stations
Dyin' to live, livin' to die
Prayin' for change in my situation
I remember Herbert county jail
I was trippin' about all the time I was facin'
I got some friends no longer alive
From doin' a line that somebody laced it
We live in a cold place
Everybody strugglin' where I was raised
We stuck in our ways
People'll really do anything just to get paid, damn
Got me prayin' for my people, Lord
Can you watch over and protect us from all evil, Lord?

[Chorus]
I've been lookin' for myself
At the bottom of an empty bottle (Empty bottle)
I been lookin' for myself
You know I'll be here tomorrow (Here again tomorrow)
Wish these old barstools and bar tops
Could tell you stories that they've heard (Yeah)
These old tattoos and faded scars
All got some kind of story that they serve
And I'm just tryna get a better hold of my life
Why does everything that's wrong for me always feel right?
I'm just tryna get a better hold of my life
Why does everything that's wrong for me always feel right?