Looking For

[Intro]
The fuck are you...even talking about?

[Verse 1]
When I was sixteen, thought 'bout when my life would start, yeah
If it's already started, I'm a goner
Spent all my time and money smoking ganja
I see myself turnin' into my father
'Cause all I know is self control
And I ain't real on socials, yeah, it's all show
And how come I get anxious when I'm on a phone?
'Cause I been chasing demons, I been chasing ghosts
And how can I write love songs when I hate myself this much?
And lately, I been chasin' something
But I'm not quite sure just what

[Chorus]
I been looking for
I been looking for
And when my heart beats out my chest, I just can't endure
I been looking for
I been looking for
And though I've startеd on this quest, I just can't be sure
What I'm looking for

[Verse 2]
Murdеrous thoughts in my head
I lived a life on a thread
Then my past isn't one to forget
And I'm stuck inside a city that I hate
And all my fucking friends cannot relate to me
But really I'm a product of my age
'Cause when they end up dead it barely phases me
Like oh my God, who have I become?
I don't wanna be someone who talks way too much
Don't talk about myself 'cause really, who gives a fuck?
And I'm not sure just what

[Chorus]
I been looking for
I been looking for
And when my heart beats out my chest I just can't endure
I been looking for
I been looking for
And though I've started on this quest I just can't be sure
What I'm looking for