Long Distance

[Verse 1: Cole Tindal]
I only got so many minutes and so many quarters
My breath is freezing, every other phone is out of order
To all my supporters in Minnesota roaming
I've been hoping to get back to you some more with these recordings
To the friends that I ran around with:
We tanned our arms in the sun of being young and built our memories for countless hours
We built the sand towers, rushed in side in rain showers
I know we think about it, 'cause we all live without it now
My yoyo's still in my pocket, my trumpet valve is sticking
I sent a letter to one of you and you didn't get it
See you in person, and you tell me to hit you
When I call you always got some other issue, maybe I don't fit you
Maybe a lot of things, something we just gotta live through
You could stand and sing but you just keep your voice within you
You could be a king but you don't think you got it in you
To all the ones who had my back, just know I wouldn't quit you
I go to school, go home
I go to school, go home
I go to school, go home
I'm tired of it
Tired of being alone, and playing on my cell phone
All a sudden I was grown, I wasn't ready for it
All the things that were important got replaced
And I been chasing them but I feel like I've been running in place
And now I've been so many places, don't let the innocence fade
I've got some conflicting expressions on my face

[Hook]
I'm calling you long distance
I'm calling you long distance
I'm calling you long distance
I'm calling you long distance, yeah

[Verse 2: Cole Tindal]
I stress too much on being known
Only got so many minutes I can be with people from my home
I take some mental pictures of the car rides and songs
And put them in my stories and my poems
Scared of what's waiting for me when everybody's gone
Scared of being embarrassed and looking at people wrong
Scared of getting too heated and breathing fire at anyone who pushes me too far
My words can leave scars when I'm crossed
And all my friends are drinking too much
They all used to understand the problem. now the problem's moving through them
Now the bottles entertaining, I knew you when cartoons was humor
Don't get me wrong we all been changing just in different rooms
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall, 'cause I've been missing you
Wishing we could all be like the kids we were in middle school
Wishing we could tell ourselves the truth, I’m calling you long distance

[Bridge: Cole Tindal with Jacob Schuelke]
*Everything I bottled inside, this is how I'm speaking my mind* (I’m calling you long distance)
*Taking dirt and cleaning with rhyme, let my feelings breathe in the lines* (I’m calling you long distance)
*Everything I'm saying, I mean it*
*My heart's not for taking or leaving*
*I'mma take all of the pain and relieve it*
*I ain't gonna keep it*

[Verse 3 - Jacob Schuelke]
Yeah, calling you long distance is what I fear most
Wasn't the only one going through it, my peers know
To stay away from the person who made the tears flow
'Cause it may never be our time again to feel close
But what does close mean? Got my interpretation?
It's somewhere in between "I love you" and “it hurts to face it"
It's somewhere wanting to go back in time, so I can save it
I'm sick of people asking if I'm over you, it's too hard to fake it
And every time I go back home
Time by myself is not the same as time feeling alone
If we were closer I would call you on the phone
But this what happens growing old, right?
Tender love and care it must have gotten old, right?
All the time we shared it must have gotten old, right?
Thought you was always gonna be the one to hold tight
But what you told me what you did I cried the whole night
Honey baby you made the rain fall, and I been walking in it
It's hard to conversate with you 'cause when we talk, it's different
Whenever you text or call, I shouldn't wanna listen
'Cause every day it's you I wanna stop from missin'
Wanting distance away from all the pain and heartbreak you radiate
I start shaking whenever I hear your name
I've made it clear I didn't deserve it, and so did you
And all I want is to forgive you
I've learned a whole lot from going through this hardship
From God is real, 'cause he brought me out the darkness
To finding out where I'm headed and what to start with
And these words I'm gonna part with:
Calling you long distance, there's space in the lines, I speak between 'em
Guardian of my own mind, my memories I keep 'em
They're mine with a special place in my heart, you can't reach 'em
If someone's not close, there's a reason
I'm calling you long distance

[Verse 4 - Cole Tindal]
You put me in a tough spot, the way you left it
Suddenly you disappeared and didn't even tell me
How hard would it have been to send me a message?
After five years of knowing me you still leave me guessing?
Like, I had invested all these sentences and breaths
To have the fact that you had left be said to me by someone else
Like I had no control, imagine how it felt, like I was helpless
When I'm by myself wonder if you regret it
And yesterday I thought I'd drive
Saw this street that felt familiar to me and I didn't know why
’Til I remembered when I'd see you, saw the same lights and signs
It had been a long time since I cried that hard
The type of friend you are to me, I wish I would have said it
We let the distance get to us, I wish we hadn't let it
We call each other but we're fighting through the sentences
Keeping each other out, private matters stay protected
And I don't care about the weather
I'm feeling isolation I don't feel when we're together
I'm crying when I'm praying, asking God for friends who stay in your life without disappearing
All this negativity's been making me defensive
I'm gonna rap this in a letter and I'll send it
All the hurt that's pushed me down from happiness today it ends
Every unreplied message that I know that you read
It's time to let it rest I'm making space for peace in my head
And I'm not saying that I wasted my breath
When I told you in elementary you were my best friend
I'm just explaining what you do to other people when you say it back
And act as if it's only me who actually meant it
Well I wasn't pretending, you got why and how blended together
From simple questions you manage to leave open ended
It's not too late for us, send a text or pick up a pen
I'm calling out to you, tell me you understand
Over this long distance

[Bridge: Cole Tindal with Jacob Schuelke]
*Everything I bottled inside, this is how I'm speaking my mind* (I’m calling you long distance)
*Taking dirt and cleaning with rhyme, let my feelings breathe in the lines* (I’m calling you long distance)
*Everything I'm saying, I mean it*
*My heart's not for taking or leaving*
*I'mma take all of the pain and relieve it*
*I ain't gonna keep it*