Loner

Where do I go, which way do I turn
Searching for that love I so desperatly yearn
Fading memories of a past I'd soon forget
Isolated and alone waiting for the one not met

Is it vision or does she really exist
Illusion of a fantasy like a ship in the mist
The truth of it all remains to be seen
For in this moment of time I can only dream

Laying awake I stare into the night
Doom and dread surround, like the demons I fight
River of emotions flow like a swift moving tide
Spiraling so fast downward I slide

Will ever I find that peace, I do not know
Breaking down more with each passing blow
Desperation and pain a part of everyday life
Words not spoken that cut like a knife
My life?