Lonely Reality

[Intro]
Standing in the rain
Take away my pain
Understand I am the shame
No one else to fuckin' blame
Man I am so confused
Don’t know what to choose
Help me or do I help you?

Yeah it's hard to understand
What the fuck I'm going for
What the fuck is my plan?
My thoughts are full of gore
It's hard for me to control my mind
Got no future to explore
I'm drifting from the shore and I…

[Verse 1]
Hate myself more than my mother
Making my own supper, not without another lover
I don’t really wanna live, but I gotta give in
Givin' this another spin, I just want to win
Wanna give you everything, queen to my king
Not a fuckin' string, yeah that’s the thing
I'm so alone, mentally yeah I already know
Not gonna say though, cause I already tried
Leading me to fucking feel dead inside
Pointing to god, now I'm asking why?

Why doesn’t she want me?

And I'm dumb for thinking someone would want me like that
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I've got no purpose, fuck this
I can't take it, I'm in a ditch, can't breathe, I don’t wanna live

Who really cares anyways?
Who really fucking cares?

I can't take it

[Verse 2]
Answers to the test that’s all that you wanted, never cared for me
Never thought of this being something
I'm so empty, I thought we could fill it yeah you and me
Fuck my stupidity
This is my reality