Lone Soldier

[Intro: Kym (Spoken)]

As always, our session will be recorded
So Kyle, for today's session, I'd really like for you to open up to me a little more
Maybe dig deeper into some issues that you haven't really been facing
During our talks I feel like there's some things that maybe you need to address
So
Why don't you open up to me? Tell me what's on your mind
Let's start with your childhood

[Verse 1: Kamikazi & (Kym)]

That's all I really do is open up
Put the pen to the pad, let it soak it up
When I think about my dad, kinda chokes me up
And all the shit I never had got me broken up
And all I really wanted was some clothes and stuff
Used to hover by the oven, it was cold as fuck
Hella hoes, or sluts
I blamed momma cuz she chose the drugs
Yet I really wasn't old enough
But still holdin' up
(Do you feel like you hold a grudge?)
Only cuz I never felt the love
And everything I ever cared about
Or when in doubt either leaves or retreats just left me numb
I'm sick of talkin' 'bout it, let's be done
It's been a long road, sweatin' blood
I shed my tears with the best of 'em
And I don't wanna take another second stressin' over shit that was

[Hook: Kym]
Lone soldier
Walkin' this lonely road of lonesome
Come from that
Broken home
(?)
Cuz the only life that I know
A life without you
A life that I knew
That life left me
Bruised and scarred
I need a new start
A life that is new

[Verse 2: Kamikazi]

You know what just kills me?
That my daughter has to feel this pain
Her mother ain't shit
But if I speak how I feel my daughter gets bitchy
She has so much of a temper but she found her niche
She just really needs a fit to release this shit
13 years old, she don't need this shit
All because her momma wasn't meant to live like this
It makes me sick
Man I grow just like you
If anyone knows the pain I do
I feel like we lost our bonds somewhere along this road
I've tried to find you
It;s like you don't trust me enough to remind you
That I've been the one that's been here right beside you
I guess I deserve it
Maybe I am just as worthless the hate that my mother's confined to
(?) to find you
I'm not one to hold a grudge
But damn, where the fuck is the love?
Everybody wanna throw me to the mud
Maybe it's karma cuz I told my momma I'm done
Sits in the dark since they show me no sun
I tried to live life though this life mighta won
And my daughter don't know what I could've become
Or wish I would be if I didn't step up and I pray that they don't

[Hook: Kym]

[Outro: Kamikazi]

I ain't got too many friends
And I ain't got too many homies
My momma is trippin'
I ain't close to anyone unless they still know me
So it's me with this pen
And this be for my homie
Brainsyck the mission
I wish upon stars
When I (?) and record and mix my emotions
And right to the morning
Absorb my thoughts
Find the source of my orbit to you
(?)
(?)
Without a warning
I seem like an orphan
Maybe it's me in the storm
When angels and demons perform
And I could see more within me if there wasn't this fortress stuck in this portrait
Oh, but my life is so different I
Inherit this thought that I wish to die
I am so scared that I pray to God every night
"Please disinfect me"
I beg the sky
Never look through the eyes of an angel
Fly by the planets and stars
We are the future