Living In Loops

[Verse]
Lips sooty from the Black and Mild's
I live in hoodies, I been black for miles
Maybe kilometers
A Vagabond I been acting out
Cold slumber, waking up in New York
Like nothing happened, now
And there it is, you enact a smile
Problem is I know that this ain't really real
Yo can you pass a vowel
This way, Pat Sajak
I think it's cat and mouse
Why am I always on a chase when nothing matters now
The feel was perfect till it flattened out
I feel I'm swerving, I imagine doubt
And there it manifests
I never thought to see that man a threat
Blindsided by the thought
That that was something I would stand against
And so I shuffle into tussling and man, regrеts
Is something that is really fucking with, man's upset
And it is somеthing that has stuck with me
The thought that I was really only with you for the luxury
What the heck

[Refrain]
Or what the fuck
I ran outta my luck
So I ran, got in my car
And I'm ducking cause you were dumping at me
All I wanted was some love and happiness
The home I came from was fucking massive mess
And I'm stuck

[Hook]
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
They tell me that they just dreams, but I'm losing my shit
They say that I should let go and I loosened my grip
They always say it ain't enough how uncouth can I get
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
They tell me it ain't what I think, this confusing as shit
I cannot parse a friend or foe, so I stew in my shit
They try to tell me don't give up, don't go losing ya gift
But I'm stuck
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
Yeah I'm stuck
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
I been stuck
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
They tell me that they just dreams, but I'm losing my shit
They say that I should let go and I loosened my grip
They always say it ain't enough how uncouth can I get

[Verse]
I'm always used to y'all walking away
Now in my dreams and nightmares, I am sparking a j
I'm still whipping in a car so I park and I wait
I'm at the target that we'd walk through, It's all been a day
Except not
It's 4am and you all in my brain
Everyone I ever lost had to all get away
Like anyone I ever knew that discovered my pain
And realize it was too much to recover my fate
For real
And every night I envision the same
It's why I try to stay quiet, it's all been a waste
To open up like what the fuck is my target again
I'm blind
I swear my glasses are foggy again
And I know
Here I go being Marcus again
Stuck in my room and intentionally starving again
Just know that I am really sorry my artistry is the fault of me
Causing problems and starting things over mundane bullshit
Fuck

[Refrain]
Or what the fuck
I ran outta my luck
So I ran, got in my car
And I'm ducking cause you were dumping at me
All I wanted was some love and happiness
The home I came from was fucking massive mess
And I'm stuck

[Hook]
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
They tell me that they just dreams, but I'm losing my shit
They say that I should let go and I loosened my grip
They always say it ain't enough how uncouth can I get
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
They tell me it ain't what I think, this confusing as shit
I cannot parse a friend or foe, so I stew in my shit
They try to tell me don't give up, don't go losing ya gift
But I'm stuck
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
Yeah I'm stuck
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
I been stuck
Living in loops and I'm losing my grip
They tell me that they just dreams, but I'm losing my shit
They say that I should let go and I loosened my grip
They always say it ain't enough how uncouth can I get