Live 4 U

Jean Grae - “Live 4 U”
[Emcee(s): Jean Grae]
[Producer(s): Ev Price and Block McCloud]

[Verse 1: Jean Grae]
It’s kinda hard to explain
But I’ve been thinking, haven’t come to a decision
Drinking away the pain night after night. Listen: it’s like I’m caught
In the rain that never stops and only follows me
Wide, hollow feeling of emptiness, nothing inside of me
Drama lays my head on the pillow, and, still, no sleep
I’ve been walking the Wonderland for 40 days and 7 weeks
Just wondering how good it would be to finally say goodbye to everything
That’s going wrong, God, especially me. I wanna
Let go, let my mind just finally be free, breathe
With no echo. Tomorrow won’t be less without me. Eyes staying
Wet though. Only thing that keeps me on the side of the living
Is you… said the same thing to me too
Otherwise, I’m just caught up in deception and lies
I have days of just waking and hating the sunshine
Hating life itself, hating death for taking its time
Loving you enough not to commit the ultimate crime. I sin
In my mind though, visions of weaponry wetting me up
Paying people off for setting me up, some crazy, wild, sick
Imagery, painting pictures of bloody scenes. It seems the only
Peace of mind is in dreams, so I pray for never-ending sleep
But it never comes, so I’m prey for being
So weak and giving up. Friends say I live the party life
Living it up, one hand on the glass
Other on the bottle, filling it up
I wanna leave so bad, but loving you is enough
To make a slow exit to Hell, would never leave you here by yourself
Nobody else could keep me here but you
Nobody else could wipe away the tears but you. I love you too much

[Hook: Jean Grae]
I would give my life
For you if you asked me to
I would do just
Anything for you, and the world
If I could, I would give to you
But I don’t have anything to give
So I swear just to
Live for you, live for you

[Verse 2: Jean Grae]
Are you
Disappointed in me? Twenty-three, can’t get it together
No money, no job, debt that seems to last forever. I just wanna
Make you proud someday, like accepting awards that’s in front of a crowd
And say, “Thanks,” in front of a million people. Tell you
I’ve fallen victim to some evil things in the past, my road’s
Been short but rough, a lot of things you don’t know even if you asked
I wanna tell you all but I can’t. You’re too precious for that
Trying to explain why your daughter is into rap. I’m like
Guilt with a guilty conscience, emotional politics
Wild in me, constantly pregnant with a rowdy problem
Child in me. I wonder: if we switched places, changed
The dial on me, would you rather be somebody else’s
Mommy? Divorced probably, disown me, no apology
Needed—I understand the reason. It’s the quality
Of living and what you want for children. I’m not
Giving it, but you’re the kind of love that never gives up

[Hook: Jean Grae]
I would give my life
For you if you asked me to
I would do just
Anything for you, and the world
If I could, I would give to you
But I don’t have anything to give
So I swear just to
Live for you, live for you

[Verse 3: Jean Grae]
I promised
I’m gonna buy you that house on the beach, a whole damn street
And give you grandchildren, two maybe three
Build you a studio and get you back to recording and singing
Whenever you want, give you whatever you want. I know
You miss the music too—you just put up a front
But I can see it in your eyes, musical echo soul cries to be free
Don’t you worry about me
I’m gonna be all right. When I’m in darkness, you’re my light
I just think different—like you taught me. The way you do
Shine different, they all can see. I just wanna
Tell you you’re loved, and anything that I can ever do for you
Is never enough, it’s never enough
It’s never enough

[Hook: Jean Grae]
I would give my life
For you if you asked me to
I would do just
Anything for you, and the world
If I could, I would give to you
But I don’t have anything to give
So I swear just to
Live for you, live for you