Lighter Than It Feels

{Verse 1]
Trying as hard as I can
Trying so hard to understand
But the river inside runs cold now
Even to me
To me

But trying this hard only ties the knot
Tight enough to squeeze
All of the light out

[Pre Chorus]
Yes I know I can turn it on like a screen in a dark room
But I know if I do I can't sing with honesty to you
To you

[Chorus]
I know you're reaching for me now
But your other hand is clenched in a fist
Ready to miss the intentions in my words
Ready to dismiss me before I am heard

[Verse 2]
It's a sad situation
I must say now but it's lighter than it feels, baby
Lighter than it feels
A direction is so hard to choose
When you know exactly what you could lose

[Chorus]
I know you're reaching for me now
But your other hand is clenched in a fist
Ready to paint me crazy
Yeah, but either way it's lighter than it feels baby