Life

I can see the past as it's catching up to me
And I desperately try to flee
Please somebody
Tell me will I truly ever be free?
I can see the future as I open the sutures
That hold it together
Can I weather the storm come whatever?

Nothing lost, nothing gained
Status quo remains the same
In my melancholic heart
Breeding melancholia
Nothing lost, nothing gained
Status quo remains the same
In my melancholic heart
Breeding melancholia

All my life I wanted to believe
That something greater was destined for me
I bode my time
Biting my tongue
Waiting for something that will not come

And I'm sorry I can't see the forest for the trees
When I know that there's a life waiting here for me
And I'm doing everything that I can
But something's wrong when the boy I was
Wouldn't recognise the man that I am

Begging the question the answers never came
Asking for change but it all just feels the same as always
With the pressure pushing down on me
Tell me who am I supposed to be?