Life as a Soap Opera Plot, 26 Years Running

You said no, this isn't your intentions painted on a mask
I can't tell who is staring back at me
Actors to your marks, let's start again
I can't decide how it will end

Nothing's precious, but wait
Every single step I take, I'm looking for a new escape
No, don't say I'm still the same

Save my soul (Don't say my name)
I've tasted everything
Your gaze, your touch
Yet I'm still in my grave

Cross-stitch through my head, poor patchwork
Pull the thread, there's still the same blame
No substance can change
I can't save my soul

I've taken every drink in hopеs that I
Can save my thoughts
Oh, please don't lеt me
Make this mistake

If all I wanted was death
Then I would fall in love
But I need a dead end and a live wire
Like I need a hole in my- That's enough
You make a drunk want another round
Pouring gas on the fire
I try to make it hurt
You try to make me a liar, take it or leave it

Please don't say
I can't change

Hold my head, cross the line
Help me feel content, so

Now we're both trapped in the movement
You scream my name
I say we're better off as just empty vessels
We won't make it out if we throw it all away

So close your eyes
Say your prayers

It's not enough to stay warm
I wanna burn in the flame

This sense of life will
Fade away