Letter to Pops

Don't even know where to begin!
I never felt your presence as a kid!
I know you loved me but that’s the story you ever told!
You was out there doing your thing my mama stressed!
Could've made an effort but time you never had (oh man)!
What a shame for a man with some principles!
You ditch your fam let a lady handle all your dues!
I think that's lame cause you left her lookin like a fool!
What kinda man that don’t man up cause that's what cowards do.. Ey!
Look man I ain't mad at ya!
Now I'm old enough and strong I guess I'm built like her!
Shе loved you through the bullsh*t wherе was your heart for her!
She made sacrifices let go of her dreams for us but ey!
8 years sine you left now I understand!
They say ubomingumzamo it's hard being a man!
As I look back to those years I guess you had a plan!
Rest In Peace soon enough I'll visit your grave!
As you can see I'm shedding tears while I write this letter!
Wish you were here so many things I wish that I could tell ya!
I’ve had a lot of obstacles but never been a failure!
I know you look down on me tomorrow might be better!
My heart frozen I learn to love with this ice block!
Been through it all I’m numb to all these hardships!
The game cold as I climb up it gets colder!
No one to hold me if I fall I'll die a loner!
Been the victim of the pain you already know!
I never force a vibe so I just let sh*t go!
I hide emotions if I’m hurting never let it show!
I miss you almost every you already know!

Rest In Peace Pops..