Letter To Myself

[Chorus]
I didn't come from the bottom, but I was struggling
Everytime I bet on myself, I'm always doubling
As a kid, looked people in the eye and I was stuttering
Nowadays, I look 'em in the eyes and they be stuttering
When I would come back from school, was in my room suffering
Mad at myself while the demons were steady snuggling
Inside of my soul, but shit, I didn't really care of it
Until I grew up and realised that it was troubling

[Verse]
It was troubling, man I couldn't live like this
I realised that they wasn't the problem, it was me, I guess
A joke was not something that I was familiar with
Took too many punches to the heart, but I deserved that shit
One day I woke up and said ''Fuck it, let me change something 'cause I'm sick and tired of the things that I been dealing with''
Didn't know what I was starting to become and I was scared, but shit
Ever since I took a risk, man I just stuck with it (I just stuck with it, yeah)
It was me against myself, but now it's me against the world, baby
Took my time and I got on my grind
Now I'm shining like a diamond in the rough, that's what I may be
If I would drown, will you pull me out and save me?
Or will you fold spit in my face and go betray me?
Hate it or love it, imma play the game and claim it
Forsake me, embrace me, shit dont faze me
Every night I close my eyes and talk to god
Tell him just what I want, hoping one day that he responds
Almost gave my love to all of those around me
But I thankfully didn't do it, that's a bullet that I dodged
I couldn't picture a day where I would be so fucking satisfied
'Cause I would smile in the mirror, but I was really dead inside
I learned the hard way no matter what you do, you're critisized
Life is harsh and it goes for everyone, you'll be alright
Reached the end of the tunnel and now I see some light in site
Looking back to the nights where I made my momma fucking cry
I made a promise to make her happier, she my ride or die
I made it so far, I'm thankful for this life 'cause I

[Chorus]
I didn't come from the bottom, but I was struggling
Everytime I bet on myself, I'm always doubling
As a kid, looked people in the eye and I was stuttering
Nowadays, I look 'em in the eyes and they be stuttering
When I would come back from school, was in my room suffering
Mad at myself while the demons were steady snuggling
Inside of my soul, but shit, I didn't really care of it
Until I grew up and realised that it was troubling