Letter To Myself

[Chorus]
I used to want the racks by the duffle and the checks by the millions
Wanted to protect my investment, invest in my children
Now the hero finally got the cape then he turned into the villain
Now my check is reality, I'm finally startin' to feel it

[Verse 1]
Wasn't cool enough, broke fan, all I had to feel the breeze
Night sweats, get these covers off of me
Hella dark, I couldn't see
Lights off, no electricity
Food spoiled, don't got no more EBT
What the fuck am I to eat?
Eat last, raisin' babies ain't cheap
Thеy clothes fly 'cause my clothes stayеd cheap
An eighth last a whole week
Pockets low, it's on froze, how they freeze
As a man, I didn't feel real manly
Always with the rent late, tryna figure out how to get paid
Worked all damn night for that minimum wage
Prayin' to myself, askin' God, "Where the better days?"
Must've caught the damn machine 'cause He wasn't answerin'
What kind of son am I really to lack the faith like that?
So full of love, how the fuck am I feelin' hate like that?
Givin' out hate, just know you gon' get that hate right back
I went off script, of course, I wasn't raised like that

[Chorus]
I used to want the racks by the duffle and the checks by the millions
Wanted to protect my investment, invest in my children
Now the hero finally got the cape then he turned into the villain
Now my check is reality, I'm finally startin' to feel it

[Verse 2]
Speed up a year, wakin' up to a bigger crib
Feel like that nigga, gettin' figures, what the business is?
It's fuck a fan, I got A.C., I feel the chill again
I'm risin' higher, I'm on fire, never chill again
But I got caught up in the money, got caught up in the fame
I got caught up in a character who really wasn't me
I was lyin' to my wife and gave her nothin' but deceit
Eyes on your paper but I decided to cheat
Kids tellin' me they missed me, I ain't seen 'em in some weeks
I was spendin' all my money like it grew on fuckin' trees
Wasn't takin' no advice, I was consumed by the greed
Assassinatin' my own character for the creed
I was down bad, now I'm up, I'm still down
Not too late, still time to turn around
And be somebody new
The best version of you

[Chorus]
I used to want the racks by the duffle and the checks by the millions
Wanted to protect my investment, invest in my children
Now the hero finally got the cape then he turned into the villain
Now my check is reality, I'm finally startin' to feel it