Letter To My Mother

Hi Mum
I know my crying's inaudible
I’m your chosen one
I am the son that has been born to you
I know my birth had put a lot burdens on your shoulders too
Like praying to the lord that I’m not crippled, deaf, or disabled
You can see it in your eyes
I know I’m really cute
But anything
To hear me cry
I know you’d tear the world in two
Can you imagine all the fun things
We'd potentially do
Like watch me go to school
While I blow a kiss from me to you

But as I grow up, I blow up, my face is changing
Success is on my mind, not a toy or favourite game
Always want me to be there for you
And I try my best
But I’ve got a problem, I’m trying hard not to forget
That you and dad
You guys my only family
I get too wrapped up in my world
And I can feel it strangling
I take it out on you two whеn you do not understand me
I guess I’m tirеd of explaining why I’m failing reality

I’m just working hard so I can give it back to you
All the time you gave me even though life’s hard enough for you
It’s funny how you stay strong with all the noise that’s surrounding you
I know me yelling isn’t helping getting sound back to you
I should be more patient
My thoughts can be belated
I got to be more careful
Because your views are sedated
I’m sorry for all my fighting
I’m sorry for all my crying
I’m sorry for all the times I lose grip of my mind

Life is short
But it’s big enough for you and I
I love you so much
That
I think my love could touch a sky
But I’ve changed a lot of angles
I’m not an appeaser
Promise there’ll never be a day I pack up and leave ya
Nonetheless
With every sign that you express
You’d gimme your heart if you could rip it out of your bloody chest
That being said, here’s mine out paper
Just wanted let you know
That you are my only saviour

Mama, mama
Here’s my letter
Promise our lives
Will only get better
Mama, mama
Stop your crying
Know there’s hard days
We’re surviving
Mama, mama
Soul in writing
Know I love you
Know I ain’t lying
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Here’s my letter
Promise our lives
Will only get better
Mama, mama
Stop your crying
Know there’s hard days
We’re surviving
Mama, mama
Soul in writing
Know I love you
Know I ain’t lying
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama

Remember all the times I would be running home crying
My eyes puffed red from all the bull and lies
That the kids at school were planting to flourish all my anxiety
The root of all the innocence that got ripped from right out of me
You didn’t know who was to blame or what was wrong
You didn’t know why a knife was pointed at my heart
But somehow your actions spoke to me like words of a psalm
You kept my heart pure and you kept my mind calm

Thank you mum for everything
Thank you mum for everything
Thank you for fighting for our family when you put on that ring
Thank you for surviving the coma when you had birthed the twins
Thank your for turning every loss right around into a win
Thank you for dealing with all the pain and all of the distress
Thank you for all the times you’d put me to bed when I was scared
Thank you for every little thing in my, a-mazing life
If it wasn’t for you I couldn’t imagine where I would be in my life

Before you go, I want to let you know, I love you
You couldn’t say these words to your father when he was gone from you
I just want to appreciate you while I have you in my life
Rather than regret all the times I could never say goodbye
I wish that we could have more time together within our lives
If god replaced you with Eve, then evil wouldn’t be alive
I hope my words don’t break you down and make you cry
Rather build you into the queen that helped our family survive

I know we still have a long and hard road together
I know we still have the time to cherish each other
But I’m hoping this letter explains how much you really mean to me
And it’s a sign where I don’t need to raise both of my hands and my feet
I know I can be a pain in the ass, I’m the best at that
I know there’s times where I can breakdown and blame it on my past
You always pick up the pieces cause my heart is made glass
Just know my love for you will ever, ever, ever last

Mama, mama
Here’s my letter
Promise our lives
Will only get better
Mama, mama
Stop your crying
Know there’s hard days
We’re surviving
Mama, mama
Soul in writing
Know I love you
Know I ain’t lying
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Here’s my letter
Promise our lives
Will only get better
Mama, mama
Stop your crying
Know there’s hard days
We’re surviving
Mama, mama
Soul in writing
Know I love you
Know I ain’t lying
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama
Mama, mama